013. Ah, before it ends tonight, let’s all reminisce what happened this past few months. I remember this very moment a year ago, I promised myself this is going to be it. This year will be mine and I will rule the world. Haha. Kidding about the ruling the world part. But this time last year was the moment I said 2013 will be my year and nothing’s going to stop me. And fuck that shit, 2013 was not my year. Not even close to being my year. When I said nothing’s going to stop me, turned out, I stopped myself from making this year great.
This year, I learned that karma is real. Every time something good happens to me, I have to expect that something bad will happen soon. And that just sucks. It has been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me this year. Literally a lot of ups and downs. But mostly, downs.
Last 2012, I did a lot of changing and growing up. This year, I did a lot of forgiving. I made amends with some people this year and not only I felt great about it, I also checked off something from my bucketlist.
Here’s a recap of Erika’s 2013:
January: Spent the last 4 hours of 2012, listening to “All This Time” by One Republic. The Haylor kiss at Times Square. Haylor. More Haylor until the 8th day when the Kiss You music video was released and Taylor and Harry split. Yeyeyey. January was the month, I danced with the guy I liked for 3 years and okay I thought it was amazing but nah I was wrong because fast forward to….
February: Ah, smelled the roses I wasn’t going to receive for Valentines but I didn’t smell that one rose I’ll be having. HA HA HA. Back to the dance thing, I danced with this boy in my class who I hate for no apparent reason but every time I touched his hand I felt butterflies and shit I’m crying. February was also the month of prom. 2 of my guy friends danced with me and it was fine heh
March: The only thing I recall from March was the Rad lunch and the oh so emotional last day of acads where I got my first ever hug from the boy who made me feel feels I shouldn’t.
April: Start of summer. Start of my diet.
May: End of summer. End of my diet.
June: It was shitty. My iPod got stolen, sections got rearranged and I was sad the whole month.
July: Season 15 of my life. Thesis huhuhu.
August: My last sportsfest. The Conjuring. Suspended classes.
September: My grandfather passed away when I was watch This Is Us. Season premieres everywhere.
October: It was okay. Really. Except for the part I got sick whereas I was supposed to go to Subic. I started hating Jenna Hamilton.
November: NOVEMBER WENT BY REALLY FAST LIKE IT LASTED FOR 5 SECONDS. I DON’T REALLY REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT THIS MONTH EXCEPT MIDNIGHT MEMORIES AND SURVIVAL CAMP.
December: The highlight of the year arrived the first week a.k.a my Instax camera. Heheheh. Last Cantata, and everything went okay for the rest of the month.
Now, let’s begin with what 2013 taught me. 2013 taught me how to forgive people. Really. Along with my Instax camera, I guess forgiving people was one of the highlights of 2013. I finally forgave my friend. I forgave the boys who treated me well but I hated them. I got rid of the all the hatred and bitterness. I actually regret hating them. I hated the wrong people. There were people who I should’ve hated for obvious reasons but I didn’t. I just practically labeled people so yeah. Note to self: Don’t do that this coming year. It’s never too late to let people in your life and give them a second chance.
2013 taught me how to accept things in life. When you can’t do anything about something, the best thing to do is accept. Accept what you have and what you can’t have. Accept that it was never meant to be or accept that’s just how life works.
2013 taught me to love your loved ones before it’s too late. Tell them you love them. Visit them. Idk. Just do something to see them or to talk to them. Make an effort.
2013 taught me how lucky I am. I may not have an iPhone, iPod, etc. But after what happened to Visayas after typhoon Yolanda, that’s when I realized how I’m truly blessed I am. With just having food on my plate 3 times a day plus a home to go home to, I really am lucky and blessed.
2013 taught me if it’s not meant to be, then it’s not. Stop making it happen because it won’t and probably never will. There are other good things in life, there are better people out there. You just have to wait for them to come in your life.
2013 made me realize I’m holding on to something that didn’t exist anymore. The person I missed didn’t exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change.
2013 taught me that you will drift away from your friends. It’s part of growing up. Plus it’s okay to walk away from someone if you think you don’t fit in their life anymore. Aaaand I’d rather have one true friend than one thousand fake ones.
2013 taught me grades doesn’t matter. School measures how well you memorize terms but it does not measure your intelligence and what you are worth. Another thing, what you built for the 4 years of highschool will be gone the minute you leave it on graduation day. Some will remember it, but keep in mind, you won’t be seeing half of the people you’re with right now once you start college. Plus cool kids in highschool end up being the lamest and no jobs.
Okay, so 2013 generally taught me a lot of things in life. And even though 2013 was a tough year for me, this year gave me things to be thankful for.
2013 made me thankful for my family and friends. I would literally give up everything for them because I just love them with all of my heart.
2013 made me thankful for my batch. Yeah, we’re not the most perfect batch and everyone hates us, but we love each other. Or at least try to. But yeah. We don’t care what people say when we’re all togetherrr (LOL SEE WHAT I DID THERE HAH) (IF U DIDN’T GET IT THEN SUX FOR U) (KIDDING IT’S FROM HAPPILY BY ONE DIRECTION)
I’m thankful for One Direction, Ed Sheeran, The 1975, Arctic Monkeys, Gabrielle Aplin, Mcfly for existing. Yes. Thank you for making me survive another crappy year.
I’ve been through a lot of shit this year. But I thank 2013 for teaching me all these lessons. I could say I’ve gotten stronger this year. Even though this was a crappy year, I had a lot of memories that will make a good story someday.
I’ll be ending this post by a quote from the movie “New Year’s Eve” and something from HIMYM.
“And as you all can see, the ball has stopped half way to its perch. it’s suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop, and reflect on the year that has gone by, to remember both our triumphs and our missteps, our promises made and broken, the times we opened ourselves up to great adventures… or closed ourselves down for fear of getting hurt, because that’s what new year’s all about: Getting another chance, a chance to forgive. o do better, To do more, to give more, to love more, and to stop worrying about what if… and start embracing what will be. so when that ball drops at midnight, and it will drop, let’s remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other, and not just tonight but all year long.”
“…And that’s the magic of new year’s. When that clock strikes midnight, we all get a fresh start. and I don’t know about you, but I could really use one.”
2014, you better be a better one. Be a memorable one. Be the one I’ll be remembering forever. Please just please. That’s all I want.