Made in the A.M – Album review

Made in the A.M was released Friday the 13th. It is the 5th album of One Direction, the 1st album without Zayn. Just like any album since TMH, songs have been leaked before the release day. I have to admit, I listened to some. (BUT NOT ALL THE SONGS.)

Before I reveal my least favorite to my most favorite songs off of the new One Direction album, this is the 4th time I’ve done this in this blog. /Soo proud of myself ;)/  Here’s a bit of a senti moment. I’ve been doing this ‘reviewing’ for One Direction albums since Take Me Home, and to be honest the yearly 1D album review post excites me so much. Well, this post will be the last one for awhile because the boys will be on a break for 2016. (That means no album for next year 😦 ) So I hope you guys enjoy this post.

To have something new this year, I made a “movie poster” kind of theme for this album review because it will be the last for awhile and I’m seriously going to miss making this post.

[DISCLAIMER: I do not own the photos I used in this post so credits to all the owners. I got most of them from WeHeartIt.]

NEVERENOUGH

First up, is Never Enough. Before the album has been released, Niall said it’s his favorite song off the album. I thought it was going to be a ballad or something. But it wasn’t. If I’m not mistaken, Niall’s favorite song from Four was Where Do Broken Hearts Go, and that was one of my top favorites as well. Well, this time, I didn’t really have the same favorite with Niall. It just didn’t connect to me as much. It reminds me so much of Lion King hahaha. Timon and Pumba could get down to this. I love Liam screaming here HEHEHE.

WOLVES

This is a catchy song tbh haha. This song could be on Midnight Memories.

Other fave line: “In the middle of the night, when the wolves come out headed straight for your heart”

DRGMEDOWN

This is one of the least played songs because this was released months ago. If this was released just now, this would’ve been one of the most played. HAHA. Anyway, if you haven’t seen the music video of this… well, where have you been?

Other fave lines: “I got a river for a soul and baby you’re a boat”

“If I didn’t have you I’d never see the sun.”

LUG

This song is Zayn af. It just it okay I don’t need to explain. Anyway, I cried the first time I heard this and then when I repeated the song I laughed at the chorus because of Harry’s line “Oh, why you’re wearing that to walk out of my life?”. Maybe Harry was shading someone for not wearing Saint Laurent when he/she walked out of his life. Psh. At least be fashionable when you walk out of his life. You could also sing this song to my math grade. Especially the lines “I know there’s nothing I can do to change it but is there something that can be negotiated? My heart’s already breaking, baby, go on, twist the knife”. Lmao kidding aside, you could actually feel some pain in this song 😦

OLIVIA

I read somewhere that this song isn’t really about a girl named Olivia, it could be for a person or a place. And to me it’s more of a place than a person haha. This song is really catchy and reminds me of something that you would here on a Broadway musical. This song also reminds me of McFly’s song Little Joanna. You could replace ‘Olivia’ with ‘Pizza’. e.g: I live for you, I long for you, Pizza.

HEYANGEL

Harry kept tweeting the lyrics of this. And boy oh boy when the leak came out, I was so tempted to listen to it. I didn’t though because I felt like this song meant a lot to Harry. I hope there’s an acoustic version of this song. This is the ‘Clouds’ of Made In The A.M because this could be a potential opening song in a concert. In some parts of the song, it sounds like Gotta Be You with an upbeat tempo and other lyrics.

Other fave line: “Hey angel, tell me do you ever cry when we waste away our lives?”

 WAF

This song has an 80’s vibe to it. I could imagine this playing while the sun is setting haha. It’s perfect for just chilling or jamming out. If you’re looking for a modern song for a ballroom dance, this is it my friends.

Other fave lines:

“What a feeling to be right here beside you now, holding you in my arms”

“When the air ran out and we both started running wild.

 The sky fell down, but you’ve got stars in your eyes”

“I wish I could be there now.”

PERFECT

The music video of this song was on point. It’s one of my favorite music videos of all time. Anyway, Perfect is the prime example that the boys have matured in terms of writing songs. From “chiny chin chins” to “rendezvous” BRO. I want this song to play when I’m having an adventure or something.

Other fave lines:

“I might never be the one you take home to mother and I might never be the one who brings you flowers. But I can be the one, be the one tonight”

“that don’t mean that we can’t live here in the moment. I could be the one you love from time to time”

“And if you like midnight driving with the windows down. And if you like going places we can’t even pronounce”

“And if you’re looking for someone to write your breakup songs about”

HISTORY

Ohhh. Bet you screamed at that picture. This song is just a feel good song and it’s a song that would instantly remind you of “You’ve Got A Friend in Me”. 😦

Other fave lines:

“Don’t let me go. We could live forever”

“The good champagne, private planes but they don’t mean anything” 

INFINITY

They released this song months ago but it still counts as one of the most played (sorry, Drag Me Down). The lyrics just get to me and it means a lot. I have a thing with songs involving “stars”. Lmao. It takes 6,341 years to count all the stars. Goodluck with that lads. Call me when you’re done.

Other fave lines:

“Going faster than a million miles an hour” (my IG bio)

“How many nights have you wished someone would stay? Lie awake only hoping they’re okay

“Since you went away, there’s nothing left in mine. I feel myself running out of time”

LONGWD

This song made me cry so hard I don’t even know. This is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever listened to. The lyrics are so simple and ironic but it makes you think a lot about life. For me this song is about regrets (???) or just being overwhelmed by all the things you have and you end up not making the most out of it because you’ll always think it’s always gonna be there and you’re just too caught up with all the things happening.  This song is also about being on top of the world and suddenly crashing down. Hence, the roller coaster.

Other fave lines:

“We sailed the ocean and drowned in the waves. Built a cathedral, but we never prayed.”

We had a mountain, but took it for granted. We had a spaceship, but we couldn’t land it”

“We had it all, who could’ve planned it?”

ENDOFTHEDAY

I love the “drop” of this song. It’s not really a drop but ugh I don’t know how to explain um like the drums before the chorus just causes me to get dOWNNN. I feel like the boys are teaching you about something directly unlike their other songs that you have to decode the lyrics in order to understand and get the lesson.

Other fave lines:

“You’ll follow your heart even though it’ll break, sometimes”

“All I know at the end of the day is you love who you love, there ain’t no other way. 

“If there’s something I’ve learnt from a million mistakes. You’re the one that I want at the end of the day

TEMPORARY

This is the “No Control” and “Girl Almighty” of this album. If you’re having a bad day, you can just listen to this and you’ll instantly get better.

Other fave lines:

“Feel you on my neck while I’m calling a taxi. Climbing over me while I climb in the backseat” (woah there)

“We can roll in the darkness,. Let me touch you where your heart is” (GETTIN A LIL GRAPHIC HERE U GUYS. I still don’t know if it’s “we can roll” or “we can moan”, either way it’s still graphic)

“Let me be your goodnight.”

IFICOULDFLY

Okay. Here we go. I’m gonna get all emosh on the following songs because I don’t know. Just. Please hush. It’s my moment. And you won’t read anything like this in what… a year or so?

This was one of the leaked songs I listened to. Did I regret it? Yes. Yes I did. I didn’t know it was gonna be a sad song. From the moment Harry sang the first few lines I was already ugly sobbing. And when Liam came on I was practically just a mess. The chorus hit me like a bus because of the line “For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you’re lonely and forget who you are”. If you’ve been a reader for so long and when you really really know me personally, you would know that I’m not the happiest person alive. For a time, I’ve just been down because of different reasons both big ones and little ones. And I’m not ashamed to tell that because it’s just the way it is. It’s life. In a moment I’m on top of the world, so happy, so positive, so free. 0.02 seconds later, I’ve already hit another all time low in life and everything is just so dark again. This band and their songs have been a getaway, an escape from all those moments in life where I can’t handle anything anymore. They were the box of matches I got when I was stumbling in the dark. And because of that I’ll always be grateful for them and for everything they have done for me.

Other fave lines:

“I’ve got scars, even though they can’t always be seen. And pain gets hard, but now you’re here and I don’t feel a thing.”

“Pay attention, I hope that you listen cause I let my guard down. Right now I’m completely defenseless”

HOME

When I first heard this song, the first thing that I thought of was the time I went to their concert. Idk. Because for the longest time in my life, I was home. There’s a saying that goes: “Sometimes, home isn’t four walls. It’s 2 eyes and a heartbeat.” Well for me, sometimes home is  it’s 10 eyes and 10 hearts beating. 😉 (yes I included Zayn because he was part of my home and he still is.)

Other fave lines:

“So many nights I thought it over. Told myself I kind of liked her, but there was something missing in her eyes”

“I was stumbling, looking in the dark with an empty heart but you say you feel the same”

“And it’s alright, calling out for somebody to hold tonight”

So hot that I couldn’t take it want to wake up and see your face. And remember how good it was being here last night”

IWTWUAS

Aaand we’re down to the last 3 songs of the album. I can’t. I’m trying so hard not to end this post early 😦

Anyway, this song is just so simple and it’s a bit chilled down. It reminds me of something from Mumford and Sons. This song caused the waterworks and it is just something the boys would want us to keep forever. They wrote a lot of songs for the fans throughout the years but this song is probably one of the most meaningful songs they have ever released. And because of that, I will keep this song close to my heart forever and when I say forever, I mean I’ll bring it to another lifetime, if I could because it’s just sooo beautiful.  Because they will be gone for awhile and no one knows when they will be back or if they will be back as a band, they want the fans to remember they’ll always be there. Not in presence, but in spirit. They left something for us to remember. They want us to listen to this song when the times will get bad when they’re away. And I’m just aojfadingha I can’t type properly anymore because I’m crying. This song is kind of a “Thank you for the wonderful times. I’ll be gone for awhile, but we will always want you to have a wonderful time even if we’re not there.”  😦 TF AM I DOING AIHSFGBA

Other favorite lines:

“Just a hint of pain for the feeling that I get when you are gone, I want to write you a song”

“I want to lend you my coat. One that’s as soft as your cheek So when the world is cold, you’ll have a hiding place you can go”

“Everything I need I get from you. Giving back is all I wanna do.”

“I want to build you a boat. One that’s strong as you are free. So any time you think that your heart is gonna sink. You know it won’t”

“I want to write you a song, One to make your heart remember me, so any time I’m gone. You can listen to my voice and sing along. I want to write you a song.”

WITW

This is the 2nd to the last song in this post. This song is kind of upbeat but the lyrics are sad. I feel like, this is their “closure” song with the fans.  That if they don’t come back, at least they said goodbye. (like in the line “Fact that we can sit right here and say goodbye, means we’ve already won” They want the fans to know that goodbyes aren’t always bad. It could be a good thing, that’s why it’s a “good”-bye. We’ll see them again for sure, maybe in the same stage but maybe in different places. Who knows what will happen right?

At the end of the day, we should be happy we had the boys in our lives. And they will always be in our lives no matter what. The thing is, they have touched my life and millions of lives out there. And to me, they’re already legends for that. My love for them will never change.

Other fave lines:

“A week ago you said to me “Do you believe I’ll never be too far””

“If you’re lost, just look for me. You’ll find me in the region of the summer stars”

“A necessity for apologies between you and me. Baby, there is none”

“We had some good times, didn’t we? We had some good tricks up our sleeve. Goodbyes are bittersweet”

“I know I’ll be your anchor. Just close your eyes and see. I’ll be by your side, any time you’re needing me”

AM

This is it. Last song. I could imagine myself sitting with my friends just talking about anything while singing along to this song. This song could bring back a lot of good memories with friends, and you could make memories while singing along to this song as well. The boys have spent so much time together for the past 5 years. And I could imagine them just talking in the tour bus or at a lonely hotel room, until the sun rises. I could imagine them writing this song and just remembering the little moments they had as a band.

Other fave lines:

“Feels like this could be forever tonight. Break these clouds, forget about time. There could be a World War 3 goin’ on outside”

“You and me were raised in the same part of town. Got these scars on the same ground. Remember how we used to kick around just wasting time?”

“We’re all gonna make it.”

“Don’t wanna sleep cause we’re dreaming out loud
Trying to behave but you know that we never learned, how”

“You know I’m always coming back to this place, you know. And I’ll say, You know I’m always gonna look for your face, you know”

 My friend and I were just talking the other day and I was telling her how I didn’t want to grow up and I didn’t want to let go of the boys yet. And she told me I grew up, I just didn’t notice. And I realized, I guess I did a lot of growing up this year. I’m so proud of myself for that but I’m so scared because I just am okay??? I don’t want to say goodbye to the boys yet. I don’t want to say goodbye to anything or my old self yet. It’s bound to happen, but not now. I still need to be me, the one who hates eating spicy noodles and doesn’t look at the person she’s talking to. IDK WHAT IM SAYING BECAUSE IM JUST A MESS RIGHT NOW.

The boys sacrificed a lot of things to be where they are. I hope they don’t regret one bit of it. It was one hell of a ride to be honest. I don’t know if I should step out the ride because I just want to be here for awhile.

To the boys, thank you for everything. Words cannot express how thankful I am for having you in my life. You might never know me personally and vice versa, but I want you to know that had a big impact in my life. You changed me. I will be here til the end. ‘Til the A.M. 😉 And if I make it big one day, I’ll always thank you because you’re one of the reasons why I stuck around. I love you with all my heart. If you come back one day, I’m just here and without a second thought, I will run to you guys. I’m proud of you, for what you have become and what you will be in the future. xx

 This is an end of an era. This is not the end of everything. 🙂

That is aall xx

ENDER14

I saw them. Finally.

Once there was this 12 year old girl who found this British-Irish boyband called One Direction when she was a sophomore in highschool. And well, that boyband became her world. She wanted to see them live. She was already a fan when One Direction started their Up All Night tour. But they didn’t go to her country. When the UAN tour finished, they started the Take Me Home tour for their second album. Again, they didn’t go to her country. When the TMH era ended, the boys had a short break. They then came up with the “One Big Announcement” which sparked hope for this now 14 year old girl because there were rumors that it was a stadium tour. Her country had stadiums. But when they officially announced the tour, she couldn’t see the name of her country anywhere. She didn’t give up because 1D said they were still going to add dates and venues. Buuut again for the 3rd time, they didn’t announce anything about them going to her country and performing there. At that point, she was tired of waiting but she was hopeful.

2014 finally came. WWA tour was still going on when they announced “On The Road Again”. On May 2014, a video leaked. When she clicked the link, it was the 5 boys she has loved since she was 12 announcing that they were going to perform in her country soon. There were tears; happy tears. She tweeted so so much that night, all in caps lock. She screamed in a high pitched voice and went to her mom’s room to tell her all about it. She knew she’d be allowed to go if ever because she kept mentioning it to her parents since she became a fan. And finally, ticket selling day came. She didn’t get a ticket because she lived far away from Manila and it was already sold out. Again, she didn’t lose hope. A few days later, another video leaked and it was the boys again telling that they’re adding a 2nd day. And there, she lost her chill. The ticket selling for the second show wasn’t until 2 months later. She did save up for that concert, but she figured out that they were going to sell during her birthday month so she begged her parents to give her an overpriced piece of paper that would bring her ultimate happiness for her birthday. And so they did.

July 3 came, and the ticket selling started 10AM. There were technical difficulties and after 4 hours of stress, tears and anxiety… She got it. She got a ticket. She was finally going to see her favorite boys live. Finally, after 4 years.

The girl I was talking about? That was me.

MARCH 22, 2015. I was 16, and my dream came true.

Back story: I lined up 12:45pm and wow it was hella hot that day. And while I was in the line, 10 minutes in, I HAD TO PEE. (I have a weak bladder ok) So I called my mom and aunt to sub for me andI ran as fast as I could to the mall to go do my business and ran back to the line. There wasn’t any much progress to be honest. When I got back, they were still there. A few minutes or so, they had to leave me. So I was alone and all I had was my phone, a liter of water, C2, fries and a burger from Jolibee.

It took about 3 hours til I was near the tent (ok I don’t want to explain the line anymore because wow it’s just going to take long). So about 4:00, I was already in the tent and this was where the drama started. So I just got in the tent and you had to go to the tent before you entered the grounds. And there were barriers and people kept moving in and out of the line and wow some of them were “singit” and it was so freaking annoying and so unfair!!! The adult infront of me called the attention of the guard because she noticed it and got annoyed. There was this particular lady, she was in a green dress and she had 2 daughters and yes I heard their conversation, the lady was like “When someone asks you where you’re going tell them you were in a group and you got lost. okay?” WHAT THE HELL. WE LINED UP FOR ALMOST 4 HOURS, ENDURING THE HEAT AND YOU’RE JUST GOING TO CUT THE LINE JUST BECAUSE YOU KNEW SOMEONE WHO WAS ALREADY THERE??THAT’S NOT HOW THIS SHIT WORKS. THAT’S WHY THERE’S A LINE.  AND IF YOU KNOW THEM,  TELL THEM I HATE THEM AND I HOPE KARMA HITS THEM IN THE FACE. /lmao ok i lost my chill for awhile there/

Aaanyyywayyy, while I was in the line in the tent, I could already hear music. They were playing Macarena lolz and people assumed they were already there so duh, people were screaming and wow my anxiety was through the roof i swear. And some were saying that they could hear the drum, meaning Josh (the drummer) was already there. So people were screaming again. It was about 4:30 when the line was moving and wow the way was so dirty 😦

I was shaking throughout the whole 5 minute walk to the entrance. When I got to the Gold entrance, the guards were checking our bags and wow I forgot to drink my C2 and I forgot that umbrellas weren’t allowed inside. So instead of putting the umbrella in the baggage counter, I had to donate it. Even the C2 lol, there was this random lady who was like calling those who wanted to donate food and drinks to the police and all. So I gave here the C2 lol.

So they finally got my ticket and I, being alone, did not know where to sit lol. But I found a row that wasn’t occupied yet, it was like the right of Gold and I wasn’t really in the middle, I was more in front than in the middle… I think? But I was near the Smart booth lol.

So here was my view: It was a bad angle, but I swear I saw the stage (and later on, I saw them lolz)

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When I was there sitting, I got thirsty so thank God there were food and drink booths near me. So I told the girl in my row I was getting drinks and she was so nice, she even put a Penshoppe catalogue in my seat to reserve it. I didn’t get her name though 😦 But I was sitting next to her and her friends throughout the whole concert.

So I got the water already and blah, there were Penshoppe commericals, Little Mix music videos on the screen lol. Look at my shot of Sean O’Pry. Bruuhhh

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When it got darker, they started playing 5SOS and Olly Murs music videos. And at around 6:00, it started drizzling. Wow thanks a lot clouds and precipitation. Then the front act came, and that was the time it started raining CRAAAZY.  Btw, the opening act was DJ KC, I think he was from Malaysia (?) (I hope it was a Filipino band though 😦 But DJ KC’s set was so fun and got us so pumped). He started with a his set with All Of Me. Umm I don’t exactly remember the whole set but some songs he played were Breakfree, Diamonds, Turn Down For What, Lose Myself, We Are Young (which was the last song I think? And wow it was great that he ended his set with that because it pretty much sums up the night that was about to start)

Then the set ended at about 7:30??  So while waiting, they played music videos again. And then the reminders came on from the boys and everyone was going crazy, even the rain got crazier (I protected myself with the banner we were supposed to hold up) but the rain poured so I was like meh yolo, I’ll just get wet even more when they come out (Did I just say that?). Then the screens went to the OTRAT screen thing haha and played the songs they would normally play before the boys came out. Two of which were the Friends theme song and Macarena. After the songs, they played the MV of Good Girls by 5SOS and that was when I knew they were about to come out. Anyway, the rain did not get any weaker.

OKAY FAST FORWARD. THE SCREENS DID THE BLINDS THING AND MY WHOLE LIFE FLASHED BEFORE ME AND THE INTRO VIDEO CAME ON AND I JUST LOST IT. THEN AFTER A FEW SECONDS, THE BOYS CAME OUT AND WOWZA I STOOD ON THE CHAIR (which was prohibited lol but yolo!!!) and the first one I saw was Harry!!! (And they were pretty small bc duh I was far from the stage but you could still see them from my section). (But still you could still see their height differences lolz) And wow in pictures, Louis looks the smallest but really, Niall is. Woah.

The opening was Clouds and again, I screamed my head off. (THAT’S LOUIS’ HEAD HAHAHAHA)

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Here’s Liam (more like Liyummy hehe) BUT I SWEAR LIAM LOOK SO GWAP IN PERSON :((( EVEN THE OTHER 3, HUHU (yeah zayn wasn’t there and it was the first concert without him)

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After Clouds they talked and like wow. tHEY WERE TALKING. AND I WAS WITNESSING EVERY SECOND OF IT. MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. And during that time it still wasn’t sinking in that they were right in front of me. So they sang Steal My Girl. Zayn, not being around, Liam had to do Zayn’s solo. Which he did pretty good. Wow.

After Steal My Girl, it was one of my all time faves. Where Do Broken Hearts Go. And Niall Horan, God bless that boy. When Niall sang “To the look on your face when I let you go” MY HEART MELTED BECAUSE HE PROLONGED THE “LET” PART SO INSTEAD OF IT BEING FLAT HE WENT A NOTE LOWER THEN WENT BACK UP TO “YOU GO” AND MY HEART MELTED :(((  It was the 3rd song, and I was already crying. Idk why but WDBHG means a lot to me especially this line in first verse before the chorus. “So I built you a house from a broken home. And I wrote you a song with the words you spoke” and that line is so beautiful :(((

THIS WAS THE REASON I CRIED DURING WDBHG BYE NIALL /ok the pictures are a bit blurry because of the rain and both my camera and phone can’t focus because it got wet/

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Okay this was Liam speaking lol and I think this was  when he was singing in a sing-song voice “mANILAAAA” and he kkept doing it before speaking HUHUUSHUSH MY HEART 😦 /i miss liam already it has been 2 weeks since i saw his beautiful face/

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Midnight Memories went next and I don’t have a video of it because I called my blockmate who was also a fan lol. Then it was Kiss You and yeah haha I have a short vid of it. After that it was Stockholm Syndrome (???) or was it Ready to run idk hahaha. I’ll upload videos really soon when I have the time. I think it will just be a vlog-type video where I’ll be cutting the videos and making it in to one. Yeah I think I’ll do that lolz

Then it they sang Strong and believe it or not I didn’t cry during that song. They performed Better Than Words after. WHICH WAS WOW. Because I witnessed Niall’s famous crotch grab :((( I’m wow still. I am blessed. I don’t have a picture but it was on video hahaha.

So I didn’t know the songs that went after Better Than Words during that time. So I was like wow okay surprise me. AND THEY SURPRISED ME ALRIGHT. Niall was all like “This is a song I wrote with a band called McFly” and I was thinking they were going to perform “I Would”, which Niall also wrote with McFly. And I was so confused that time ok. BUT WELL SURPRISE. It was Don’t Forget Where You Belong. And I was lost and confused that time okay so they put DFWYB go after Better Than Words and that’s when I remembered that it was the “sad songs saga” because after DFWYB, it was Night Changes then Little Things. I mean who does that??? They literally wanted me to cry all the tears I have present in my body (what hahaha)

Okay so let’s go back to Don’t Forget Where You Belong. /I accidentally deleted the video of this ugh ugh/ But I cried so so so hard during this song. And the backdrop was them being them and some of the footage of the performing and yeah. Which made me so emotional because I’ve seen this boys when they were still tiny and sitting at the bottom of the stairs and now they’re selling out stadiums and they were performing right in front of me.

“Don’t forget where you belong (HOME). Don’t forget where you belong (HOME). If you ever feel alone, don’t. You are never on your own. And the proof is in this song.” 

Wow okay. And I cried again during Night Changes 😦 Obviously haha. Because that song just means a lot to me. 😦

So during Little Things I was calling my friend haha so I couldn’t take photos on my phone so I took a video on my camera. But along with DFWYB, I accidentally deleted it. Just like the 2 previous songs, this one just… made me burst in to tears right after Niall’s verse and wow.

Okay fast forward… Alive, Diana (surprisingly I did not cry during this song), One Thing

What Makes You Beautiful was next. For the past 4 years I’ve been saying “WMYB is the song I will never forget because it made me beautiful just for 3 minutes and 21 seconds.” And it’s true. And during that time, I remembered all the things that has happened in the fandom late 2011, early 2012 when the boys were just making a name to when they released their second album and from that time, it was just crazy already. And you know what when the first note of  that was the moment everything sunk in, all at once. The 4 years of waiting was so worth it. It was worth it because I loved them so much and they made me so so happy for the past 4 years. And I think I will never love anyone so greatly like I loved One Direction. Our love was deeper than the Pacific Ocean. (Well, my love… but still I know they loved me too lolz)

Next up was Through The Dark and bruh during that time we didn’t know Zayn was leaving. We just knew he was on a break. So I just enjoyed the song though it just means a lot because it was released 2013 and if you’ve been reading my blog, you know that 2013 was a tough year. And I remember listening to that song on repeat during our last camp lol. Plus Liam forgot the lyrics before the last chorus he was like “Oh I will carry you… carry you over fire and water” HAHAHA.

“And you don’t need to rush, I know you wanna be loved. Oh I will carry you over fire and water for your love. And I will hold you closer, hope your heart is strong enough. When the night is coming down on you, we will find a way through the dark” 

After that it was a happy song yey!! Girl Almighty. And before they sang it, correct me if I’m wrong but someone (I think Niall) was playing Act My Age on the guitar and I thought they were really going to sing it for the first time because they were like “This is a fast song and this involves a lot of clapping” idk ok

 Story Of My Life was the last song before the encore. So they were already saying goodbye and all that but I knew they were still going to have the last 3 songs. Again, I got emotional during Story Of My Life lol.

Sometime before SOML, they did the birthday thing to Toby and sang I Will Survive and read a few signs from the crowd. And they read a sign saying “LIAM I AM YOUR LONG LOST DAUGHTER” and the girl at the back was like “DADDY AF!!!” no chill 😦 no chill 😦

So the plan was, we were going to sing Torn right after they returned backstage for a wardrobe change. And ya we did… kind of lol. They went back and HARRY. OH GOSH HARRY TIED HIS HAIR INTO A BUN. BRUH BRUHHH. So they then performed You and I (which was sooo different because Zayn wasn’t around) then Little White Lies aka my jam because wow dat bass drop gets me every time!!!

And finally, it was down to the last song which was Best Song Ever. That time my phone was out of storage so I had to delete some selfies and the Facebook app so that I could take photos. My cam had like 3 minutes left. So I was like eh whatever I’m just going to enjoy the last song and not take a video for the whole song. And again, I got so emotional and I was screaming my head off, I was like “I LOVE YOUUUU” “LIAM!!!!” “LOUISSS” “NA-YAAAAL I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUU” “HARRY!!!!” 😦 hahahaha which was pretty annoying but meh it was the last song and I was standing on the chairs and everyone was like “KUYA LAST NA TO WAG NIYO NA KAMI PABABAIN” because standing on chairs wasn’t allowed.

[Louis voice] I know you know I know you’ll remember me and I know you know I hope you remember how we danced // HUHU ofc I will remember you how can I not!!!

And after BSE, there were fireworks and I was just so happy and sad at the same time. Idk what I was feeling I was aifagahisjga hahahaha. I’ve never been so so happy in my whole life because I just saw the loves of my life and I’ve never been so sad because I saw my loves and they’re leaving wow. I’ll post photos of the fireworks soon because it’s on my phone and I’m already lazy to connect my phone to my laptop.

And that concludes the best night of my life. Definitely, one for the books 😉

I’d like to thank the boys for a great great night and an unforgettable one. I don’t care if I missed school work, it was hella worth it. You promised you’ll come back soon. Next time you come around, you’ll see me in the front row. I love you. Thank you for motivating me to live and thank you for being my heroes. And to 4/5, thank you for staying. I love you guys so so so much, with all my heart. 🙂

I think that night was the time I finally felt “infinite”, just like Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower lol

Two things to keep in mind if you have dreams: Never give up. And make it happen 😉 (This also goes to future me)

Thank you for reading this v long post about a spectacular night. All the love .xx

That is all xx

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the world doesn’t turn, alright

Okay so I’m back from Manila and I want to blog about the concert but I can’t yet because I don’t have time and I have 2 planned blog posts before that. I have a 3 day vacay this week because Holy Week so I think I’m gonna post it. Or tomorrow and on Tuesday. I don’t knowww lolz.

Anyway, I think I’m going to rant about Zayn for awhile because other than PCD, and me being sick that’s the only thing I want to talk about now. If you still don’t know, Zayn has left the band. You see I’m in that stage where I’m no longer in denial even if I still want to but I can’t anymore deny because I am angry. Okay wait wait. I am not angry at Zayn. I will forever love and support him no matter what. But it’s just that I loved and supported him for 4 years and all he did was end his era in One Direction through a Facebook post??!???? I don’t get it anymore and there are a lot of rumors that that wasn’t really what Zayn said and he was fired and blah and all that stuff. I don’t believe in anything anymore. At this point, I just want Zayn back. Where he belongs. With his 4 brothers. Like can’t he just finish the tour and leave the band after?? No one knew that the concert in HK was his last ever. (I even think that the boys only knew that it was his last in Asia and he was coming back after Jakarta.) And I don’t even know anymore!!! Just like Liam said, it has been a strange 24 hours lmao :(((

But again, as long as the 5 boys exist, I will be here. Liam, Louis, Harry and Niall need me now. They all need us now. Zayn too needs someone. Let’s just be there for all of them. Like the time they were there for us, when no one else was. I’m right here, I’m staying ’til the end. And when I say the end, I mean when the last member dies.

Okay anyway, like I said, I will always love and support Zayn. And just like what Rosie said in Love, Rosie, “I’ve realized no matter where you are or who you’re with, I will always, truly, completely love you.” I will always love Zayn because he is my hero. He saved me. He’s one of the reasons why I’m still here. And I will always be thankful for all the lessons he taught me. I’m also grateful for the up all nights, and the for the roller coaster ride. But I guess this time, I need to step out of this roller coaster and ride a new one. 🙂

ZAYN IF YOU’RE READING THIS I AM NOT MAD. I AM SAD. BUT I HAVE TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU BECAUSE IF LEAVING THE BAND MAKES YOU HAPPY, THEN SO BE IT. I NEED TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU TOO. YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME HAPPINESS NO ONE ELSE HAS AND I THINK NO ONE EVER WILL BUT WOW OKAY. LOVE YOU CUTIE.

Also, I still don’t know whether this is the best or worst week of my life.

 

//And I will carry you over fire and water for your love. And I will hold you closer, hope your heart is strong enough. When the night is coming down on you, we will find a way through the dark. //

That is aall xx

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FOUR: Album review

This is from my least played to my most played (+ my favorite lines) off the album so yes, here we gooo. Also, cheers to the freakin weekend (oops wrong artist hah)

F O U R //

  illusion

“But believe me, I’m not trying to deceive you. I promise falling for me won’t be a mistake”

ss

“But my Stockholm syndrome is in your room… [niall voice] YEAH I FELL FOR YOU”

clouds

“Here we go again, another go around for all of my friends. Another night stopped, will it ever end?”

ga

“Let’s pray we stay young, stay made up of lightning.”

“The only only believer. There’s something happening here. I hope you feel what I’m feeling too”

cyt

(so um I heard this song when it got leaked and I thought it was just a joke at first because I thought it was a cover of Girls by The 1975 but then I heard Harry’s voice and I was like nope this is really the song.)

“You should probably stay, here with me a couple more days. Come on let me change your ticket home. Don’t go, it’s not the same when you go. And it’s not good to be all alone”

“Don’t play innocent, I know what you meant when you said you’d come over” zayn shut up im 5 im coming over for food

 

nc

THIS SONG IS ASAKNGA HHAHAHA OH OK I JUST UNDERSTOOD WHAT THEY MEANT ABOUT “LOADED GUN” I KNOW WHAT U MEAN IM LAUGHING SO HARD WHAT THE HELL THIS IS THE MORNING VERSION OF ANOTHER WORLD

“Powerless and I don’t care it’s obvious. I just can’t get enough of you”

fire

Okay so Fireproof was the first song to be released from this album bc they made it free for 24 hours. And tbh, this is one of my fave songs but I overplayed it so it was already kinda “meh” when Four got released.

“I roll and I roll till I’m out of luck. Yeah, I roll and I roll till I’m out of luck”

“Maybe we’re fireproof. ‘Cause nobody saves me baby the way you do”

“I roll and I roll till I change my luck. Yeah I roll and I roll till I change my luck” 

(yes I like the rolling part bc they were both sung by harry and lou so aishfag heh feelz)

oial

This made me so emosh. I feel like the song is for me and I’m the one screaming their name and I just asjbfasga. I hope they perform this live and the whole stadium would just keep quiet and :(((

“Once in a lifetime its just right. That we are always safe. Not even the bad guys in the dark night could take it all away”

“Out loud someone’s calling my name and it sounds like you”

rtr

“Without you I’ll never make it out alive, but I know yes I know we’ll be alright”

“There’s no way you can change the rolling tide, but I know yes I know that I’ll be fine”

“This time I’m ready to run. Escape from this city and follow the sun. ‘Cause I wanna be yours don’t you wanna be mine”

“Wherever you are is the place I belong”

This is a perf song for a roadtrip playlist tbh i wish they could do another version but this time call it “Ready to Drive” (HA HA *insert u tried star here*)

ama

10This is like the Niall song he literally sings every part of this and I’m 100%  sure he did the Irish jig while recording this and everyone was just staring at him then his knee started hurting so he had to stop. And basically, I have to wait until they’re fat and old until they can count on me?? idek but this is rly a cute song

“When I’m fat and old and my kids think I’m a joke ’cause the stories that I told, I tell again and again. I can count on you after all we got up to. ‘Cause I know that you truly understand”

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This is one of my faves also because this was the second song to be released and it just hit me hard because I’m their girl and they’re my boys and no matter what happens and even if there are other people/artists I like, we both know I’m still their girl because I love them with all my heart and they love me also and they will always welcome me back home bc forever 1d af. DID I JUST MAKE MYSELF CRY.

“She’s been my queen since we were sixteen. We want the same things, we dream the same dreams”

“Everybody wanna take her heart away, couple billion in the whole wide world find another one cause she belongs to me”

“I don’t exist if I don’t have her. The sun doesn’t shine, the world doesn’t turn, alright, alright. But I know, I know, I know for sure”

“She knows, she knows that I never let her down before. She knows she knows that I’m never gonna let another take her love from me now”

spaces

Okay so remember that phase us directioners had when we were like “nothing lasts forever, no matter how hard we deny it, this, all of this will also end and we will all have to move on.” Well I think they wrote a song about it. And I got emotional af when I first heard this song. I was crying on my bedroom floor while listening to this song tbh and I wish they don’t include this in their setlist because wowee there will be some serious waterworks when this gets performed live.

“Who’s gonna be the first one to start the fight?
Who’s gonna be the first one to fall asleep at night?
Who’s gonna be the last one to drive away?
Who’s gonna be the last one to forget this place?”

“The spaces between us keep getting deeper. It’s harder to reach her even though I’ve tried. Spaces between us, hold all our secrets. Leaving us speechless and I don’t know why. Who’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?”

fg

Ultimate awtsu bh3 song

“And I know in my heart you’re not a constant star”

“And yeah I’ve let you use me from the day that we first met but I’m not done yet falling for you, Fool’s gold”

“I’m the first to admit that I’m reckless. I get lost in your beauty and I can’t see two feet in front of me. And I know in my heart, you’re just a moving part”

“Yeah I know your love’s not real that’s not the way it feels. That’s not the way you feel”

18

Ed wrote this song and it’s one of the reasons why this song is so so perfect 😦 And this is my 3rd most played song off of Four. And I clearly remember that time when the tracklist got released and saw the title 18, I thought of 5SOS’ song and assumed it was upbeat but  when I heard if obvi it’s not lolz but it’s okkk // (why does this remind me of larry asdnaga)

“So kiss me where I lay down, my hands press to your cheeks a long way from the playground”

“have loved you since we were 18. Long before we both thought the same thing; to be loved, to be in love. All I can do is say that these arms were made for holding you. I wanna love like you made me feel when we were 18”

“We took a chance. God knows we tried. Yet all along, I knew we’d be fine”

“So pour me a drink Oh love, let’s split the night wide open and we’ll see everything. We can live in love in slow motion, motion, motion”

wdbhg

So there was this interview where the boys were asked what were the songs they like from the album and Niall and Zayn said “Where Do Broken Hearts Go” and automatically I started singing the Whitney Houston song. But when I heard this I was like oh okay that was real far from the Whitney song. I literally want to paste the whole lyrics of the song because I just love it so much.

“Counted all my mistakes and there’s only one. Standing up on a list of the things I’ve done. All the rest of my crimes don’t come close, to the look on your face when I let you go”

“So I built you a house from a broken home. Then I wrote you a song with the words you spoke. Yeah, it took me some time but I figured out. How to fix up a heart that I let down”

“Now I’m searching every lonely place. Every corner calling out your name.Trying to find you but I just don’t know .where do broken hearts go?”

“Shadows come with the pain that you’re running from. Love was something you never heard enough. Yeah, it took me some time but I figured out, how to fix up a heart that I let down”

“Tell me will you ever love me again?”

Aaand the most played song is *drum roll*

nightc

Okay this song just gives you feels especially when u 1d af. This song is just so perfect and literally wraps the 4th album up. And the vocals and how well it’s written wOW. They went from “chiny chin chins” to “Driving too fast, moon is breaking through her hair”. And I’m just so proud of them. I feel like a proud momma.

“Driving too fast, moon is breaking through her hair
She said it was something that she won’t forget
Having no regrets is all that she really wants”

We’re only getting older baby
And I’ve been thinking about you lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes
Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there’s nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you”

“Chasing her tonight, doubts are running ‘round her head
He’s waiting, hides behind his cigarette
Heart is beating loud, she doesn’t want it to stop
Moving too fast, moon is lighting up her skin
She’s falling, doesn’t even know it yet
Having no regrets is all that she really wants

That is aall xx

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Harry’s twenteen

I’m still not over Louis turning 22, Zayn turning 21 and now this? Yes friends and citizens of the Stillindenialville, Harry Styles is 20 today. TWENTY.

Just imagine that next year he’ll turn 21 and he’s already legal and can buy drinks and party anywhere in the world. I cry. I C R Y. Remember when he was still a fetus and he still had his curly hair and bright green eyes full of hope and dreams. Again people. I’m crying. I M C RYIGN I NEED A MOEMNT.

Moving on, I just want to say a happy happy birthday to the boy who (still) makes me kilig everyday, who I think I’ll marry in 10 years (It’s possible, I swear), the boy who wears the same black jeans and makes everyone cry not only because he’s hot but also because his jeans are ripped and he’s a millionaire who can’t even buy a new pair. That boy is also my everything, my cupcake, my love, my angel, my life, Harry Edward Styles.

I wish you all the best in life. (Please please don’t have a girlfriend which isn’t me haha kidding just fall in love with the right people and don’t make the same mistakes like idk dating someone like Taylor ok jk)

I can’t wait to meet you someday and hug you and never let you go. I’ll take you home once we meet and I’m gonna give you a good time whilst Birthday Sex by Jeremiah plays in the background……….. HAHAHAHA IM JUST OKAY DON’T MIND THAT LAST PART.

Happy birthday, love 😉 x Enjoy being 20 *sobs in a corner* (WAIT FOR ME I’LL BE LEGAL IN 2 YEARS AND WE CAN ALREADY RUN AWAY TOGETHER AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.) (WOW THAT SOUNDS CREEPY)

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Baby, now that I found you

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I won’t ‘t let you go

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I built my world around you

I need you so

Baby even though

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You don’t need me

((and if you guys are wondering, the caption below the photos are lines from the song “Baby Now That I’ve Found You by Alison Krauss))

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Happy birthday Zen

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HOW THE HELL ARE YOU 21?!? LIKE NO NO N O P E.

Okay so yeah I was a Zayn girl during my carrot days. Really. And then Perrie came in like a cannonball (see what I did there) and boom. I went for the curly one of the band. Nevertheless, you’re still special to me and you will always be.  No matter what. You mean the world to me because you make me happy and you help me get through every shit. And I will always thank you for that. Also, thank you for existing, Zayn Javaad “Beyonce” Malik. I love you so so so much.  Even though most of the time, I don’t know where the hell you are and what you’re doing and wtf the next thing  I know is that you’re posting selfies on Twitter with an iguana jezus zayn i asdhagjba. You’re so unpredictable. I do hope you enjoy the rest of your 2014 and please just don’t get married this year. Well I’m not saying never get married, I’m just saying not this year. Please please. There’s still next year and the year after that. You have a lot of years ahead of you, take  my advice and take things slow okay and live while you’re young. You need to because you’re only 21 once ((sobs uncontrollably)). Again, I love you so much and happy happy birthday again, Zayn! ♥

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I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT YOU’RE NOT 22. N OPE 

And 22 years ago, my first born was brought to this world (HAHAHAHA WAT) Happy birthday Louis Tomlinson! Aw love you so so much bby! 😦  Thank you so much for everything, for making me kilig and making me laugh. Thank you for not making corny jokes like your boyfriend. Idk. You mean the world to me, Louis. You just make me so happy ajsfbasdgs. 

And since you’re 22 (nope you’re not i’m sTILL IN DENIAL). Here are 22 reasons why I love you Louis William Tomlinson:

1) You’re just so adorbs

2) YOU’RE SMILE IS MAGICAL. LIKE WHENEVER YOU SMILE, THE WHOLE WORLD STOPS AND STARES FOR AWHILE BECAUSE A NEW BABY UNICORN IS BORN

3) You dyed your hair red for charity. Even though media didn’t notice, I did and loved you even more for it.

4) U DA SWAG MASTA FROM DONCASTA

5) The way you hug fans >>> (Can I have a hug someday)

6) YOU’RE PRETTIER THAN ME IM CRYIN

7) You defend us

8) YOU TURN ME ON WHENEVER YOU SAY OR TWEET THE WORD ‘FUCKING’ IAKFGNSG #sorrynotsorry

9) You’re beautiful inside and out 

10) Your fetus selfies r da bomb

11) You always give back and help charities. 

12) YOU ARE SUCH A DORK

13) Your love for football

14)  Those video diaries you made

15) Your version of The Fray’s Look After You

16) You’re just so sincere. You’re so honest and you’re not afraid to tell people how you feel.

17) YOU WERE BORN ON CHRISTMAS EVE BECAUSE YOU ARE MEANT TO BE A GIFT TO THIS WORLD

18) Your ability to make everyone smile. You are literally sunshine. My sunshine (yihee)

19) You have no idea, but you have saved lives.

20) YOUR TATTOOS

21)  YOU’RE REALLY GOOD WITH KIDS AND I KNOW YOU’RE GOING TO BE A GOOD FATHER SOMEDAY 

22) Fame didn’t change you.

I could literally go on forever because there are a lot more reasons why I love you.

Agaaaain, happy happy birthday, Louis! I love you so so much, it hurts. I was here since you were at the bottom of the stairs. I was here when you started climbing to reach the top of the world. I’m still here now that you’re on top and I’ll still be here when you step down that stage one day. Don’t you ever grow up. Enjoy being twenteen-two xx

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Violet hill

AND THIS WEEK ON KEEPING UP WITH ERIKA :

• No one ever laughs at Harry’s knock knock jokes. No one laughs at mine. We are meant to be.

•My Physics teacher scolded me because I was lazy HAHAHHAHA wOW JEZUS I THOUGHT YOU TOLD US TO PASS THE PAPERS FINISHED OR NOT SO I DID AND DIDNT DERIVE THE ONE AT THE bACK WELL SORRY FOR THAT WOW U DIDNT NEED TO SCOLD ME AND MY FRIEND PLUS U DIDNT NEED TO CALL ME LAZY BC MY HEAD HURTS BC I JUST FINISHED AN ALGEBRA EXAM FOR FIRST SUBJECT AND UR SUBJECT WAS NEXT OKAY AOKSRHNFSG FOR FOX SAKE

• Tamara and Jake broke up what why it’s okay tho. I’m right here, Rosati.

• My “friend” might be mad at me bc asknfgdf idek wtf  because of a rude comment someone made idk holy shit i hope not huhu I don’t like it when people are mad at me

• I don’t like Christmas shopping because I end up buying things for myself

• Almost done buying gifts. I’m not that proud of my gifts this year because I didn’t buy it with my own money unlike last year. But nevertheless, at least my mom still sponsored my gift buying. Hah.

• THERE ARE LITERALLY EGGS IN MY HAIR WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK I KEEP MY HAIR CLEAN AND I SPEND 65% OF MY TIME IN THE SHOWER KEEPING IT CLEAN JUST HASHTAG EW IM DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF I SWEAR

• I have decided not to get a 5c for Christmas because the price will get lower anyway. I’ll just wait. And my BB contract isn’t up until July. Probably I’ll get one for my birthday.

• To my friends, if you don’t know what to get me for Christmas I’ll be posting my Christmas 2013 wishlist in a few. Procrastination at it’s finest hell yeah.

• I told you my Kindler wasn’t from the lower batch. It was a batchmate. Hah. It was one of my “friends” idek if I’m her friend but I sorta consider her one???

• *sudden realization that 2014 is like 3 weeks away*

• Ed Sheeran’s new song tho > heard it when he performed it at MSG (?) a few months ago. But I didn’t know what the title was. Apparently, it’s called “Tenerife Sea (So In Love)” and it’s just so good.

• Fight Club is so cool like wtf

• Ending this post with Zayn holding this. Omg it’s like the scene from Love Actually. Okay baby whatever you say.

 

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Midnight Memories

I’m supposed to be reviewing for my Chemistry exam tomorrow. But nahhh, I’m making an album review for Midnight Memories in honor of 1D Day. So um technically the album will be officially out tomorrow. But like TMH, some tracks were leaked and next thing we know, the whole album got leaked. Anywaayyy, this album was leaked when I was in school last Monday. I had to wait for a few hours to listen to it and while I was at it, I broke my little toe. HAH. But who cares? HOORAY FOR NEW SONGS!

I wish they put this as the official album cover.

{Best Song Ever} “Said her name was Georgia Rose. And her daddy was a dentist”

Ah. BSE. If I’m not mistaken this was released some time July before my birthday? This song  is upbeat and fun. You can actually copy the choreo from the video if you want. Heh. This is like the LWWY of this album. The one you’ll be skipping when it comes on shuffle.

{Story Of My Life} “Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage”

LIKE THIS SONG HINTED ME THAT THIS RECORD WOULD BE DIFFRENT-ISH FROM THE FIRST TWO. WOW. THIS SONG IS JUST INCREDIBLE JEZUS. I MAY OR MAY HAVE CRIED WHEN THIS CAME OUT. Oh it has this kind of Passenger  x Mumford and Sons vibe to it.

{Diana} “I speak a different language but I still hear you call.”

This song was the first one that got leaked hah. Um if ever you’re having a bad day, you need to listen to this. The boys know  what we’re going through okay oh my god they just understand

{Through The Dark} “Even if you scream and shout
It will come back to you, back to you”

THE CHORUS IS FREAKIN CATCHY OKAY AND ONE OF MY FAVORITE TRACKS. And it’s like 1D meets The Lumineers yep.

{Alive} “Don’t look back. Live your life. Even if it’s only for tonight.”

Zayn starts out this song. And you know when Zayn starts a song, it’s gonna be a good one.

{Better Than Words} Cause words ain’t good enough. There’s no way I can explain your love, no “

Like imagine one of the boys singing this to you. W O W. And you can get pregnant from the “oh-s” and “awoo-s” of Liam and Niall.

{Does He Know} “Your secret tattoo, the way you change moods
The songs that you sing when you’re all alone”

The first time I heard this, I was like “This sounds like Jessie’s Girl OH MY GOD” and I started freaking out because Jessie’s Girl is one of my favorite songs of all time. And that’s when I started imagining what if I have a boyfriend and Liam’s my friend…..with benefits OH MY AZSDFGKJBS oh hahahaha. Yes, there I said it. Hashtag sorry not sorry. Please don’t judge me I’m a teenage girl with raging hormones.

{Little White Lies} “If this room was burning, I wouldn’t even notice because you’ve been taking up my mind”

LIAM WROTE THIS SONG OKAY. My baby love wrote this song. Hahaha. I love the chorus of this song because of the beat.

{Midnight Memories} “I don’t know where I’m going but I’m finding my way. Same old shh but a different day”

THIS SONG MADE ME CRY EVEN IF IT WAS UPBEAT BECAUSE THIS TRACK MADE ME REALIZE THEY GREW UP THEY’RE NOT PUPPIES ANYMORE LOUIS WILL BE TURNING 22 NEXT MONTH, HARRY WILL BE 20 ON FEBRUARY, LIAM, ZAYN AND NIALL WILL BE 21 NEXT YEAR AND I DON’T KNOW I JUST W O W. REMEMBER WHEN  LOUIS WAS THE ONLY LEGAL ONE AND THEY WERE TATTOOLESS AND THEY HAD BAD FASHION SENSE. AND IN THIS TRACK  THEY ALMOST CURSED OKAY WOW MY BABIES ARE BADASSES AND I DONT KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD BE HAPPY ABOUT IT OR NOT. (#CAPSLOCKPARAINTENSE)

{Right Now} “And we won’t be going home for so long, for so long.
But I know, I won’t be on my own, on my own.”

I don’t like this song that much tho. Hah. But it’s still pretty good. 🙂

{Something Great} “One day, you’ll come in to my world and say it all. You’ll say we’ll be together even though you’re lost.”

This song gives me hope okay?! HAHA. This song is for my future boyfriend (chos) but seriously! Haha and this reminds me of Ted Mosby omg.

{Little Black Dress} “Little black dress. Who you doin’ it for? Little black dress I can’t take anymore.”

C’mon C’mon v.2. I swear.

{Strong} “I’m not scared of love. ‘Cause when I’m not with you I’m weaker. Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong?”

Why does this song give me extreme Larry feels?! Oh that’s right because it screams LARRY ADKGBBSDG HARRY MAKES LOUIS STRONG AND VICEVERSA MY HEART HURTS WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF

{Why Don’t We Go There} “Skydive, you and I, with just these clothes. The secret’s safe with me. There’s no right time or place.”

This song sounds like Animal by Neon Trees, not even kidding. It’s so catchy and you can dance to it 😉

{You and I} “I figured it out from black and white. Seconds and hours. Maybe they had to take some time”

Umm I suggest you listen to the song before watching this video because I swear you won’t take this song seriously if you watch it first. Hahaha.

{Happily} “I don’t care what people say when we’re together.
You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.
I just want it to be you and I forever.”

Harry wrote this song…. this song is for me. Hahahaa (agad agaaad? Feeling lang? Lol jk) This is one of my favorite songs off of this album.

{Half A Heart} “Only half a blue sky. Kinda there but not quite. I’m walking around with just one shoe. I’m half a heart without you. I’m half a man at best, with half an arrow in my chest.”

HUHUHUHUH I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH OKAY IF I HAD TO RANK ALL THE SONGS THIS WOULD BE NUMBER 2 (Because the next song will be my first okay) BUT YEAH. If Stronger screams Larry, this screams Payzer. I swear. I can’t wait to hear it live and I can’t wait to see Liam sing this. I just could imagine his face. The hurt, the emotions, THE F E ELS. LOL HUHUHU.  This sounds like More Than This. Oh speaking of, Ed didn’t write any songs for the boys on this album.  😦 Maybe next album, aye? 🙂

{Don’t Forget Where You Belong}

 “Living out of cases.
Packing up and taking off.
Made a lot of changes.
But not forgetting who I was.

On the horizon.
Oh I know I know I know I know the moon will be rising.
Back home.

Don’t forget where you belong.
Oh, don’t forget where you belong.
Oh, if you ever feel alone.
Don’t. 

You were never on your own.
And the proof is in this song.

I’ve been away for ages.
But, I’ve got everything I need.
I’m flicking through the pages.
I’ve written in my memory.

I feel like I’m dreaming.
So I know I know I know I know I’m never leaving.
I won’t go.”

Okay, so this is my ultimate fave from this album. I mean you can totes feel the sadness here. The boys are away from home most of the time to do their jobs and make people happy. But in this song, you can see that fame and money didn’t change them. They’re still the boys that started from the stairs and made video diaries.

And another reason why I love this song so much is because of this line “Oh, if you ever feel alone. Don’t.  You were never on your own. And the proof is in this song.” The boys want us to know we’re never alone. They’re here for us. Not physically, but probably through their songs. It could help us. GUYS OMG OKAY IM GONNA STOP NOW BECAUSE I THINK IM GONNA CRY AGAIN. Don’t Forget Where You Belong is really a great song and this would help me if ever I go far from home in the future. I swear the boys deserve a Grammy for this. 😉

Anyway, even though you downloaded Midnight Memories illegally, still buy it on iTunes or the CD itself. It’s a great record, it’s not like UAN and TMH. It’s not bubblegum pop anymore. Midnight Memories is totes for us teenagers and not 8 year old carrots can’t relate and that’s what makes this album special. Heh. Buy iiiit, you won’t regret it. I promise.

Okay that’s aaall. I’m going to review now. xx

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So out of reach

THIS WEEK ON KEEPING UP WITH ERIKA: 

• I kinda failed Physics hahaha ha ha 😦 But for the first time I didn’t cry and didn’t feel bad about it plus my mom didn’t get mad at me. 

• But all my grades went up and my I was legit shocked when I saw my Lit grade, it went up by 6 freaking points omg okay hahaha.

• I’m enjoying my English and Filipino class. HIHI. For the whole grading we’ll be writing and I just enjoy writing.

• I made a new online friend WHEEE. Making friends online is easier online than in real life. Hahaha.

• Accomplished my La Salle forms and passed it. Got my exam permit and I’ll be taking the DLSUCET this coming Saturday. I’m so nervous like I can’t even. This is my dream school, okay? I need to do good on this exam. I could just imagine me wearing a “DLSU” shirt/hoodie next year and going to a UAAP game and cheering “ANIMO LA SALLE” omg heh.

• Oh and if ever Kobe (Paras) joins DLSU in 2015, OA na line up nila okay! With Jeron and AVO (Not sure though when he’s graduating. Is this his last year?)

• My group mate lost her usb. And the soft copy of our thesis is there ugh 😦 I wish she can find it because my copy of the thesis got deleted.

• I don’t have a service anymore so I’ll be commuting every morning ugh because my mom thinks I need to learn because next year if ever I get into a Uni in Manila, of course I have to take a jeep to go there because we don’t have a car. Well, my relatives have a car but I won’t be staying in the family house if ever. And if I don’t go to Manila, obviously I will be taking a jeep to school too.

•Wherever You Are by 5SOS is stuck in my head ugh

•Starbucks is starting to sell their Christmas flavors. Weee. It’s a glorious time to thank God that I live next to John Hay. HEH. So I can just walk there and get a drink 🙂 They released a new flavor, gingerbread latte? Haha. It tastes good but if you don’t like cinnamon, you won’t like it that much. But Peppermint Mocha remains to be my favorite. It’s literally Christmas in a cup.

•I watched The Virgin Suicides years ago. But I didn’t understand it that much. So I watched it again, and tadaaa new fave movie. Haha.

•Still deciding whether to get a 5C this Christmas or not. I already told my dad about it and since he’s not coming home for Christmas this year since he’s going home in time for my graduation on March, he told me to think about it first before I get another plan because my BB contract isn’t up until July 2014. So yeah. Haha.

• Not so freaking excited for Survival. BUT BUT I HOPE THEY CANCEL SURVIVAL AND JUST DONATE THE FUNDS THAT ARE GOING TO BE USED TO THE VICTIMS OF TYPHOON YOLANDA. YES YES. THAT’S A GOOD IDEA. 

• Tom Fletcher and his wife are going to have a baby omg omg omg hahaha

• I hate Jenna Hamilton. She hurt Matty and I will never forgive her for making my bby cry.

• HIMYM update: Robin’s mom isn’t going to the wedding. Ted proposed to the mother at the lighthouse.

• HARRY WENT AS MILEY LAST HALLOWEEN OH M Y GOD

• I got embarrassed during Music class last Friday. My teacher asked us to sing the first two Hallelujahs in Handel’s. Apparently, I sang the Tenor part. 😦

• That is all, I guess?

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