Okay so I’m back from Manila and I want to blog about the concert but I can’t yet because I don’t have time and I have 2 planned blog posts before that. I have a 3 day vacay this week because Holy Week so I think I’m gonna post it. Or tomorrow and on Tuesday. I don’t knowww lolz.
Anyway, I think I’m going to rant about Zayn for awhile because other than PCD, and me being sick that’s the only thing I want to talk about now. If you still don’t know, Zayn has left the band. You see I’m in that stage where I’m no longer in denial even if I still want to but I can’t anymore deny because I am angry. Okay wait wait. I am not angry at Zayn. I will forever love and support him no matter what. But it’s just that I loved and supported him for 4 years and all he did was end his era in One Direction through a Facebook post??!???? I don’t get it anymore and there are a lot of rumors that that wasn’t really what Zayn said and he was fired and blah and all that stuff. I don’t believe in anything anymore. At this point, I just want Zayn back. Where he belongs. With his 4 brothers. Like can’t he just finish the tour and leave the band after?? No one knew that the concert in HK was his last ever. (I even think that the boys only knew that it was his last in Asia and he was coming back after Jakarta.) And I don’t even know anymore!!! Just like Liam said, it has been a strange 24 hours lmao :(((
But again, as long as the 5 boys exist, I will be here. Liam, Louis, Harry and Niall need me now. They all need us now. Zayn too needs someone. Let’s just be there for all of them. Like the time they were there for us, when no one else was. I’m right here, I’m staying ’til the end. And when I say the end, I mean when the last member dies.
Okay anyway, like I said, I will always love and support Zayn. And just like what Rosie said in Love, Rosie, “I’ve realized no matter where you are or who you’re with, I will always, truly, completely love you.” I will always love Zayn because he is my hero. He saved me. He’s one of the reasons why I’m still here. And I will always be thankful for all the lessons he taught me. I’m also grateful for the up all nights, and the for the roller coaster ride. But I guess this time, I need to step out of this roller coaster and ride a new one. 🙂
ZAYN IF YOU’RE READING THIS I AM NOT MAD. I AM SAD. BUT I HAVE TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU BECAUSE IF LEAVING THE BAND MAKES YOU HAPPY, THEN SO BE IT. I NEED TO BE HAPPY FOR YOU TOO. YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME HAPPINESS NO ONE ELSE HAS AND I THINK NO ONE EVER WILL BUT WOW OKAY. LOVE YOU CUTIE.
Also, I still don’t know whether this is the best or worst week of my life.
//And I will carry you over fire and water for your love. And I will hold you closer, hope your heart is strong enough. When the night is coming down on you, we will find a way through the dark. //
That is aall xx