Us: A concept, an infinite playlist

I’ve been in the mood to write so um here you go. it’s a piece inspired by a boy i rly like hehez. thank you for inspiring me to do good things and to go visit places to where you’ve been and leave my mark there as well. thank you for being one of the reasons i still write. my heart still hopes for the day we meet. you seem like you have a good heart. we need more people like you here on earth. so that being said, here goes nothing.
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US

“1…2…3… Go!” 

As the first note from Chris Martin’s guitar echoed the entire concert grounds, the crowd went wild.

“Look at the stars, look how they shine for you”

I wanted to capture this using my phone because this was one of my favorite songs. But I was shaking so hard and tears were already falling from my eyes, I put my phone down. Knowing that if I were to continue to record this, it would pass by so quickly and I would regret not being in this very moment.

I looked at you and noticed you also put your phone down. You were singing so loudly and I could see tears building up. I remember that time I played this song and you told me.

“Yellow used to be my favorite Coldplay song.”
“Used to be? What’s your favorite now?”
“Magic. Ever since you came along.”

I. STILL. CRINGE. EVERY. TIME. I’m joking. That was really cute.

“And your skin, and yeah your skin and bones. Turn in to something beautiful. You know I love you so. “

By the time the chorus was done the first tear dropped from your eye and I started laughing at you. You looked at me and finally noticed that I was staring at you for the longest time and shrugged it off. You focused your attention on the band as they were playing the second verse.
I shifted my eyes to the stage, to give you a moment. And to finally sing along to the remaining parts of the song.

As soon as the song ended I was a mess from crying so much. That was only the second song of the night. Coldplay isn’t a band anymore. Coldplay was an experience. THE experience. . Tears were shed in some more songs, especially the last one. Up & Up. That one hit me right in the feels.

As the band said goodbye to Manila, I had to check my pulse because I was literally on Cloud 9. I cannot believe I just saw one of my favorite bands. With you.

We had to rush back to the parking lot before more people exited the venue, all still on a Coldplay high.

“Well, that was the most amazing concert ever.”
“I know. I still can’t believe I saw them. Literally what”

You laughed, as you started your car. It was a 45 minute drive back to my place. It was already 11 at night so you weren’t expecting any traffic. As we made our way out of the parking lot and out of the concert venue, I was staring out at the window, just trying to take in every high building there is and all of the city lights that light up so brightly.

You turned on the radio and played Trouble” by Cage The Elephant.

To enhance your carpe diem-ing experience, you said with the softest voice. Your throat probably hurt from all the singing and screaming.
“Thanks… and hey thank you for tonight.”
“Well the night isn’t over yet. Where do you want to go next?”
“I can’t. I have to catch the 2AM bus.”
“Oh right. Well, it is the end of the night for you. Haha.”

My sweet love, won’t you pull me through? Everywhere I look I catch a glimpse of you.

I was starting to feel sad again because the night was almost over. I was going back home in a few hours to attend school. I’ll be back to reality in a few hours and I’m not sure when I was going to see him again.

The next song that played was familiar. An oldie but a goodie. It was “This City Never Sleeps” by Jason Walker. A personal favorite of his.
We hummed along to the song because we were too tired from singing.

“Like all these buildings I will try, to leave the world behind til my head is clear. Draw a new skyline and change my atmosphere.”

A new song came up. I had to check his phone to see the title of the song playing. It was “Made of Something” by bvd kult and Will Heggadon

“This is such a nice song!!!”
“Shoutout to my Discover Weekly playlist”

A few more songs were played. With some close-ended questions and some conversation fillers just because we wanted to talk to each other even though we didn’t have enough energy to do so.
With just 2 blocks left before my place, I regained the energy and took his phone to play some songs I wanted him to listen to.

I played “American Teen” by Khalid.

“For the long train rides in Japan.”
“Righhht. I forgot to tell you I was going there. Who told you?”
“You snapchatted your luggage a few days ago. Lucky guess.”
“Sakura season. We all wanted to go.”
“Take me with youuu.”
“I don’t really want to babysit in Japan.”
“Wow ha.”
“I’m kidding. Maybe. Someday, soon.”

And though it was dark in your car, I saw you smile. There’s always this warm feeling inside that I get whenever I make you smile.
He turned right and we were about 10 meters away from my destination.

“When we get there can you park first?”
“Umm.. sure. Why?”
“I need you to listen to one last song. Just to wrap this night… For your playlist too”
“Alright.”

We enetered the basement parking lot of the building which was well lit.
I took my phone and plugged in the AUX cord. I scrolled through my playlist and played “Closer” by Nick Wilson. We sat there in silent when the song started to play.

I’m on top of the world with you, so let’s admire the view.

If this were a movie, the camera would zoom out now. With the song playing in the background, while showing flashbacks of our moments in the concert and in the car, and aerial views of the city, I’ll end it with a closing monologue about him and how happy I was in that moment. And then screen fades to black.

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Yeah, that would be cool. Let’s imagine that happened. That all of this happened.
Well, there was my attempt of writing a piece after sooo long. HAHAHAHAHA. You’re welcome for the cringe-worthy story. HAHAHAHAHA. Alright. Every single thing from the story is fiction. I’m still sad from not going to the Coldplay concert. huhu. I’ll get my turn someday lolz.

That is aall xx

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The tides they pull you out

I’m going back to school tomorrow oh?? And I know I haven’t really been active 😦 I was supposed to post 2 new posts this week but I didn’t do it. My brain wasn’t really working lol. Anyway here’s what I’ve been up to this week

I started All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. I bought the book when I was in Manila 3 months ago HAHA. But I just started it a few days ago. I would’ve started it earlier but again, April and May were very busy.

I didn’t buy notebooks yet because I’m still thinking if I should use my old notebook or fillers this short term. I only have 3 subjects sooo.. ya.

I’ve been binge watching vlogs on Youtube for the past few days. HAHA. And I just found out Jack Howard can sing. THE BOY CAN SING.

I did the DIY planner. Wow it was okay because I was able to customize it but hassle though. 😦 Speaking of hassle, have I mentioned I stood in line for 4 and a half hours just to pay my tuition??? But thank God for friends who bought me food while I was in line. :p Also I passed all my subjects. I was a bit disappointed in my math grade but I’m still thankful I passed. Things like that happen, maybe I just really need to push myself a little bit more haha.

I woke up so late today because I slept at about 3 am. And the first thing I did when I woke up was check Twitter. Guess who’s tweet I saw first? Niall’s. Telling that they included 18 and No Control on the setlist. I FLIPPED. I waited for both those songs for so long. IT’S SO GOOD LIVE. If you listened to the album version, you need to listen to the live version. Niall sang Zayn’s verses and I’m so idk, Niall had one job and boy did he do a good one. It’s just so good.

Aaand I’m turning 17 in a month what whaat. But before that, I need to fix my things for tomorrow. Aaaah. Back to setting my alarm to 6:05AM :p

That is aall xx

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Harry’s twenteen

I’m still not over Louis turning 22, Zayn turning 21 and now this? Yes friends and citizens of the Stillindenialville, Harry Styles is 20 today. TWENTY.

Just imagine that next year he’ll turn 21 and he’s already legal and can buy drinks and party anywhere in the world. I cry. I C R Y. Remember when he was still a fetus and he still had his curly hair and bright green eyes full of hope and dreams. Again people. I’m crying. I M C RYIGN I NEED A MOEMNT.

Moving on, I just want to say a happy happy birthday to the boy who (still) makes me kilig everyday, who I think I’ll marry in 10 years (It’s possible, I swear), the boy who wears the same black jeans and makes everyone cry not only because he’s hot but also because his jeans are ripped and he’s a millionaire who can’t even buy a new pair. That boy is also my everything, my cupcake, my love, my angel, my life, Harry Edward Styles.

I wish you all the best in life. (Please please don’t have a girlfriend which isn’t me haha kidding just fall in love with the right people and don’t make the same mistakes like idk dating someone like Taylor ok jk)

I can’t wait to meet you someday and hug you and never let you go. I’ll take you home once we meet and I’m gonna give you a good time whilst Birthday Sex by Jeremiah plays in the background……….. HAHAHAHA IM JUST OKAY DON’T MIND THAT LAST PART.

Happy birthday, love 😉 x Enjoy being 20 *sobs in a corner* (WAIT FOR ME I’LL BE LEGAL IN 2 YEARS AND WE CAN ALREADY RUN AWAY TOGETHER AND LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.) (WOW THAT SOUNDS CREEPY)

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Baby, now that I found you

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I won’t ‘t let you go

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I built my world around you

I need you so

Baby even though

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You don’t need me

((and if you guys are wondering, the caption below the photos are lines from the song “Baby Now That I’ve Found You by Alison Krauss))

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Happy birthday Zen

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HOW THE HELL ARE YOU 21?!? LIKE NO NO N O P E.

Okay so yeah I was a Zayn girl during my carrot days. Really. And then Perrie came in like a cannonball (see what I did there) and boom. I went for the curly one of the band. Nevertheless, you’re still special to me and you will always be.  No matter what. You mean the world to me because you make me happy and you help me get through every shit. And I will always thank you for that. Also, thank you for existing, Zayn Javaad “Beyonce” Malik. I love you so so so much.  Even though most of the time, I don’t know where the hell you are and what you’re doing and wtf the next thing  I know is that you’re posting selfies on Twitter with an iguana jezus zayn i asdhagjba. You’re so unpredictable. I do hope you enjoy the rest of your 2014 and please just don’t get married this year. Well I’m not saying never get married, I’m just saying not this year. Please please. There’s still next year and the year after that. You have a lot of years ahead of you, take  my advice and take things slow okay and live while you’re young. You need to because you’re only 21 once ((sobs uncontrollably)). Again, I love you so much and happy happy birthday again, Zayn! ♥

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I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT YOU’RE NOT 22. N OPE 

And 22 years ago, my first born was brought to this world (HAHAHAHA WAT) Happy birthday Louis Tomlinson! Aw love you so so much bby! 😦  Thank you so much for everything, for making me kilig and making me laugh. Thank you for not making corny jokes like your boyfriend. Idk. You mean the world to me, Louis. You just make me so happy ajsfbasdgs. 

And since you’re 22 (nope you’re not i’m sTILL IN DENIAL). Here are 22 reasons why I love you Louis William Tomlinson:

1) You’re just so adorbs

2) YOU’RE SMILE IS MAGICAL. LIKE WHENEVER YOU SMILE, THE WHOLE WORLD STOPS AND STARES FOR AWHILE BECAUSE A NEW BABY UNICORN IS BORN

3) You dyed your hair red for charity. Even though media didn’t notice, I did and loved you even more for it.

4) U DA SWAG MASTA FROM DONCASTA

5) The way you hug fans >>> (Can I have a hug someday)

6) YOU’RE PRETTIER THAN ME IM CRYIN

7) You defend us

8) YOU TURN ME ON WHENEVER YOU SAY OR TWEET THE WORD ‘FUCKING’ IAKFGNSG #sorrynotsorry

9) You’re beautiful inside and out 

10) Your fetus selfies r da bomb

11) You always give back and help charities. 

12) YOU ARE SUCH A DORK

13) Your love for football

14)  Those video diaries you made

15) Your version of The Fray’s Look After You

16) You’re just so sincere. You’re so honest and you’re not afraid to tell people how you feel.

17) YOU WERE BORN ON CHRISTMAS EVE BECAUSE YOU ARE MEANT TO BE A GIFT TO THIS WORLD

18) Your ability to make everyone smile. You are literally sunshine. My sunshine (yihee)

19) You have no idea, but you have saved lives.

20) YOUR TATTOOS

21)  YOU’RE REALLY GOOD WITH KIDS AND I KNOW YOU’RE GOING TO BE A GOOD FATHER SOMEDAY 

22) Fame didn’t change you.

I could literally go on forever because there are a lot more reasons why I love you.

Agaaaain, happy happy birthday, Louis! I love you so so much, it hurts. I was here since you were at the bottom of the stairs. I was here when you started climbing to reach the top of the world. I’m still here now that you’re on top and I’ll still be here when you step down that stage one day. Don’t you ever grow up. Enjoy being twenteen-two xx

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It was late in OCTOBER, and I’ve seen you before

OMYGOD HI GUYS HI. It’s been awhile since I last posted. Meh. I should be reviewing now… I still have 4 exams tomorrow. But here I am updating my blog. Hahaha. I don’t have an October wish. Since February, I’ve always been wishing and it doesn’t really come true. So no use in wishing. September was fangirling month for me. Like, every week I had to fangirl about something. May be it a new episode, a new season, a new movie or a new single. I’m not sure about October. Let’s just hope October starts out good for me.

Dear October,

Please be as awesome as September. Please please please. And let there be more kilig moments. Hahaha. (kidding)

Love, Erika ♥

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Goodbye, October

Yes, I made that. haha! 🙂

October was one of the awesome-est months of 2011 😉

Btw, I can’t wait for 11/11/11 11:11 which only happens once in a thousand years!! 🙂 I still don’t know what I should wish.. Hmm. I still have 10 days to think about it. Hehe! I hope November would be  awesome lol no  more awesome than October! Last 2 months of 2011, so Carpe Diem :)) Hihi.