2014 life lessons with Erika

Read this in Tyler Oakley’s voice. So much happened in 2014. (LOL get it because of his video)
1. I cried right before 2013 ended. Realizing that I survived, I am alive and well, and a brand new start + brighter days are ahead of me.
2. Opened the year not so great. My laptop charger broke.
3. After relying on my Blackberry for 2 weeks I decided I just cant so I gave in and bought a new charger right before my exams lol
4. Passed Health even if I did not submit 2 requirements.
5. Got my formal yearbook photo shot
6. Aaand that was the day I found out I got rejected from my dream school woo
7. Had a HIMYM inspired photoshoot for my creative shot for the yearbook
8. Designed my own prom dress
9. Fixed my thesis
10. Last banquet happened and wow though the theme was Great Gatsby it turned out to be… 50 shades of Purple.
11. Speaking of banquet, let’s not forget that I used one of my classmates to get in the dancefloor and danced with him to Say Something aaand I had no choice because I wanted to dance with the guy I liked since freshmen year so yaa
12. Obvi I failed to dance with him aksjfjabd I was such an idiot because he was already behind me and I was going to ask my “I.D” to ask the guy I like if he wanted to switch partners but the song ended and the next one was already a party song. Talk about prom fail moments
13. Proved our PE teacher wrong and gave her the best performance of our lives lol jk love it when you prove someone wrong and also she could not believe that we have tango’d and chacha’d our asses off like that. Uhh please.
14. Fangirled over The Mother’s cover of La Vie En Rose from HIMYM
15. Zayn turned 21 and Harry turned 20. I forgot to include that earlier I just dont want to start the numbering again
16. Literally was on the floor, screaming core values at 9 in the morning,
17) got carried by my batchmates twice
18) got screamed and was insulted a million of times before 3 in the afternoon
19) asked what makes me remarkable and answered a stupid phrase
20) told my friend I felt like the backup friend
21) cried like a baby because of the duck walk
22 literally nothing can beat that experience because since that day I’ve been numb /jk I’ve been stronger. So much stronger
23)  And 16-21 happened within a span of 10 hours.
24) by the end of the day we sang happy birthday and got so relieved
25) No valentines day prank from my friends hell yaaa
26) Had a new motto, “just say yes”
27) our final thesis defense day came and we successfully defended it woo
28) celebrated with shawarma
30) You guys know the story of how I failed my Algebra finals and had to retake the exam so I could pass? Well yes. I was late for a good 15 minutes for the test because of hORSES. Yes.
31) Celebrated with some goood DQ after the test yummerz
32) Waited for about a week or so to know if I passed or not. But okay yes I did pass woo.
33) By that time the only problem I had was my Physics grade haha
34) Failed to do good during my Filipino talumpati. I was such a fail that time. The speech should be memorized but I only said the first sentence and could not go on with the next because my mind totally blacked out even if I had this 1/4 with all the points and shit. Got half the score anyway
35) Got my final gradess woo and frakin passed all of it
36) Did not go to school for 2 days bc ugh
37) By that time it wasnt still sinking in that I’m done with the academic part of highschool and also that part when there were literally 7 days left before I could say I was out of highschool
38) While my friends ditched school after lunch to watch a movie I went back to school and boom I went all Ed Sheeran and co-wrote the batch song.
39) Did not attend Palaro bc we had to submit the final hardbound thesis copy to school
40) Just went to school the next day for 2 school programs
41) I had my first ever lunch with my soul before the program started
42) We were all in costumes and my batch got assigned to 70s. I wanted to do 80s or 90s huhu
43) my friend got noticed by my crush and not mE TF
44) Experience my first ever moshpit… At the gym floor
45) That was one hell of an emotional afternoon tbh. After the tributes to teachers, angels, lower batches, etc. We saw our former batchmates’ video greetings, saw this video that got the waterworks flowing, and finally saying goodbye to our souls because that was kinda the formal goodbye because the next event after that was already graduation.
46) Saw a movie with my friends the weekend before graduation
47) wore my uniform for the last time, stood in line for half an hour before the graduation proper started
48) i got mi diploma woot woot legit highschool graduate hurr.
49) Had lunch then went home after because we had to wait for another hour. And I scraped my foot hahAH #instacry
50) OKAY SAVED THE 50TH FOR LIKE ONE OF THE MAJOR HIGHLIGHTS OF 2014 hahahaha I have a picture with the crush hahahaa literally just the 2 of us, side by side. dont ask my how I got it dont ask me why… Just… Wow. I waited 4 years for this shit to happen.
51) I had like 4 months of summer hahaha
52) I started watching American Horror Story. Best decision I made this year
53) Officially enrolled college. The time I got my schedule… There was no turning back
54) Went to Manila, shopped til I dropped, saw lotsa cute boys, tried Jamba juice
55) went back to baguio and when I was on the bus I was watching the first WWA concert through vines.
56) Loved Eleanor and Park wow
57) Found out One Direction was coming here for a concert and let’s just say I flipped mah shit and started crying.
58) Didnt get to buy tickets for the first show bc it was already sold out tf but there was a second show announced woo
59) Started loving 5SOS and considered them as my babies
60) July came and after refreshing the ticket website for 4 hours and almost losing my mind… I got mi tickets to see my babies on March akajdjdkjsaka thank u God, thank u universe, thank u parents akajdjjdska Also after this, I started saving up for therapy. I’m gonna need it.
61) I got a new phone heh
62 ) turned 16 and got emotional
63) I forgot to say this earlier and again I dont want to mess up the numbering, I watched The Fault in our Stars and wowee I cried like a baby
64) 1st sem started and I’m glad I was blockmates with 2 of my batchmates
65) Failed Theo and I’m proud to say it
66) Had a low grade in Phonetics… Til this day I still question how it happened
67) Did I say that HIMYM ended and Ted and Robin got together?
68) Had a slight crush on my English seatmate but slowly faded away (And when I say English I mean the subject hahaha)
69) Ate lunch alone that one time
70) Struggled every afternoon to get a taxi
71) Found lunch buddies
72) Watched Annabelle and sat 3 rows from the screen itself. Obvi screamed like a little girl and unexpectedly saw some of my batchmates after the movie
73) got my PE classcard dropped and I had to get it back and that week I
74) also got sassed by the ladyguard and that was the time I missed the faculty/staff at my old school bc they were nice and ya
75) I forgot to update my journal and to this day I’m still stuck in May
76) Saw my crush and ya it was awkward bc I think he thought I was gonna approach him so slightly went my way but I changed direction and so did he
77) Fuk what else even happened this year adjfjsbaak
78) oh yeah um edited videos for a school project and felt like a Youtuber
79) Attempted to get OS 8 but failed so I still have 7
80) Got close to my 2 batchmates who are my blockmates
81) Skipped the first 25 minutes of Phonetics to pre enroll and went back. Aaand then skipped the first 30 minutes of History to finally pre enroll.
82 People who have no filter fukin annoy me and should be burned at the stake
83) Theo midterm grade went up by 17 points
84) Had a date with One Direction
85) Christmas af
86) Cried when I heard Four
88) went home at like 6 bc of the theo shiz
90) oh oh got my friend grounded bc of it lolz
91) My brain got fried because of finals
92) So this potential bae turned out to be another fukboi OH
93) Followed a random gwap boy at the mall but I think he found out we were following him (I was with a friend) LOL
94) Got a book and a condom (just for lols) for Christmas from 2 of my friends
95) Got shoes (Vans) from my mom and Roshes from my dad (shoutout to them thankerz yo heh)
96) Went out with some of my friends and had the annual year end heart to heart talk aaand milk tea
97) Umm I also got a new iPod because my 6 year old iPod is slowly dying and it needs to retire
99)  Watch Feng Shui 2 the other day and shopped for my NYE OOTD hahahaha
100) Literally rushed this post because I’m leaving in 2 hours for NYE hahaha.

Okay anyway that was 100 things I did this year. This year was just wow. Incredibly wow. I can’t really describe 2014 with just a word or any word in particular but it was just wow. Here are the lessons I learned this year. I know that earlier this year I already did one but that was for my 16th birthday, this one is for 2014.

2014 taught me that it’s okay to get rid of people who doesn’t treat you well.

2014 taught me that even if you lost everything, have nothing anymore, you still have hope. There will always be hope that will keep you going. 

2014 taught me that it’s okay to get out of your comfort zone once in a while.

2014 taught me that if you feel like some people just don’t fit in your life anymore or they treat you bad, get rid of them.  negative people in your life. Surround yourself with positive people who genuinely make you happy.

2014 taught me to not compare myself to others. 

2014 taught me that you are the number 1 version of you. I learned this from Tyler Oakley that in life, if there were a contest to being who you are there will never be anybody in the world who will beat you. Nobody will be a better you than you.

2014 taught me that time heals everything (naks naman)

2014 taught me to keep going. Stick around until the end just to see how it happens. 

2014 taught me to make. things. happen. If you want something don’t sit and wait all day, freaking chase it and make it happen. I swear. This is probably the best thing I learned this year.

2014 taught me you don’t have to control your life.  because if you do, then you’re just not living life to the fullest because you’re just choosing what you want to experience. God and the universe has it’s plan for you, just sit back and relax. Everything will fall in to place in time. Go with the flow.

2014 taught me that people who you thought you wouldn’t like are actually the best. You see I got to be with 2 of my batchmates this 1st sem. I never really thought I’d be close to them and open up to them and stuff like that. They’re actually great people, they’re one of the most fun people I ever met. I don’t care what other people think of them. It’s just because they never really took time to get to know them. HAHA ok

2014 taught me to not care about what others think. They don’t know you so don’t let their words affect you.

And finally, 2014 made me so so thankful for everything. I’d like to thank first and foremost, God. Thank you for another year of life and love. I’m so so thankful for my family and friends because they’re the only ones who tolerate my bs. I’m thankful for all the bands and Youtubers I’ve liked, you motivate me to do good in everything I do in life so thank you.

And also, I would like to congratulations to myself for another amazeballs year. You made things happen. You’re still here woot woot. I’m just so thankful for everything that happened this year. This year has just been so overwhelming. In a span of 12 months, I ended a chapter of my life and opened a new one. And wow. Just WOW ASDJAGNA okay. Hahaha.

2014 was a lot better than 2013 I can say that because it’s obvious. HAHAHA. Well, I hope to slay 2015!!! I just want 2015 to be better, brighter and happier. Please please please. 2015 will also be the last year of me being a minor so… HAHA wow.

And before I end this post, I just want to say a happy new year to all of you guys. If 2014 has not been your year, just remember that in a few hours, you are given a new start. You are given a blank book with 365 pages.  So start 2015 the right way. Leave out all the bad memories, hatred and bitterness in 2014 you have about 6 hours left to do that. Welcome 2015 with open arms, love and high hopes. And I hope you find what you’re looking for in 2015.

“An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. When life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it’s going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and keep aiming.”

when that ball drops at midnight, and it will drop, let’s remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other, and not just tonight but all year long.”

So 2015 in a few hours… Well here’s to a good year, positive vibes and making things happen 😉


15 x 16

Hiii. I’m turning 16 tomorrow and I’m so ugh. 16 is v old. Can I be like nine again? Idk. Anywaaayy, I won’t be doing a birthday wishlist because I’m really happy right now and grateful that I got what I wanted 🙂 /But if you want to give me anything, feel free. Also if  I really mean a lot to you and you want me to be extra happy for my birthday, you can give me  a pack of Milky Way or a 5SOS poster./

Here are 15 things I learned the year I turned 15 (?)

i. Do not mix dragon fruit with milk and cereal.

ii. Do not “mix” yourself with people you don’t want to be with. If you don’t want to hang out or stay with them, go out of the circle.

iii. Learn how to say no. Also, learn how to say yes. Learn how to take chances.

iv. If you believe in something, fight for it. Just because someone opposes to what you believe in, that doesn’t mean you have to agree with them. Everyone is different.

v. There is a difference between being sassy and rude. Know it.

vi. Sometimes, you just have to choose kindness over being right.

vii. What matters now probably won’t matter in 5 years. Who cares if you failed math when you have a good job not doing math. Who cares if someone called you stupid in high school when someone’s going to call you “boss” in the future. 😉 #DREAMBIGORGOHOME 

viii. Society will always judge you.

ix. “Forgive not forget” is irrelevant. You better forgive AND forget 🙂 Start over and don’t bring up the past.

x. But it is okay to visit memory lane. Just don’t live there.

xi. Had a bad day? That would make a great story someday. Remember that it is not a bad life. Also, be grateful. At least you’re still alive and breathing.

xii. Get rid of hate. Show your love more.

xiii. Wake up before the world and watch the sun rise.

xiv.  Bands/music you listened to, books you read when you hit an all time low at one point in your life did not save you. It/They gave you the motivation to do it. At the end of the day, you are your own hero. No one is going to save yourself but you.

xv. I learned that it is worth sticking around just to see what happens. Unexpectedly, good things can come out of nowhere. It would be a shame not to be around to experience them. 🙂

So here is to more brighter days and being sixteen? 🙂 /Well technically I’m not sixteen yet but I will be in 4 hours?/

That is aaall xx


JULY PLAYLIST // dis·con·nect·ed

Better late than never, right? 🙂  This was supposed to go up a few days ago but I had to delete some songs because it didn’t really fit. Anyway here you gooo

Updates on my life:


5SOS is  slowly ruining my life.

I was supposed to go to my friend’s birthday yesterday but I didn’t because I felt really dizzy and felt like I was going to faint (no I am not pregnant HAHAHA) And I feel bad because she’s one of my really good friends aW 😦 But I promised to make bawi. Bad friend of the decade goes to me.

I’m going back to school in exactly a month. Should I cry or fling myself into the ocean.

Wow college gurl :\

Basically, my phone isn’t activated yet and my carrier told me it would get activated yesterday. Ha ha. Joke’s on me, I guess?


That is all for nowww xx Sorry for the lack of posts. I live a quite busy life. Jk.


99 Questions Tag

Sorry it’s kinda late? I was out the whole day and I’m really tired. But here you gooo 🙂 I’m going to edit this tomorrow before I post another tag.

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? No
3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? In.
4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No
5:Do you like to use post-it notes? Yaaas different kinds
6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? nope
7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? Big bear. Bees are ew.
8:Do you have freckles? None.
9:Do you always smile for pictures? When I’m in the mood ya
10:What is your biggest pet peeve? when I see girls let their boyfriends carry their bag like gurl you have a boyfriend not a maid. It may be sweet to others but for me that is totes a pet peeve.
11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk? No because I don’t walk
12:Have you ever peed in the woods? Nope
13:What about pooped in the woods? No
14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? No lol
15:Do you chew your pens and pencils? N O P E.
16:How many people have you slept with this week? 0 gratata slay I’m just a child
17:What size is your bed? idk twin-sized??
18:What is your Song of the week? Photograph by Ed Sheeran
19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink? hellz yea
20:Do you still watch cartoons? Sometimes
21:Whats your least favorite movie? Open Graves ugh
22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? I wouldn’t tell you
23:What do you drink with dinner? Water.
24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in? BBQ sauce aw yiz.
25:What is your favorite food? Fries defo.
26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love? The Fault In Our Stars or Little Manhattan
27:Last person you kissed/kissed you? I don’t like to be kissed or touched
28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Ya basically in my highschool, everyone is considered a scout whether you help people cross the street or not.
29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Nah
30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? A few days before graduation
31:Can you change the oil on a car? No lol
32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket? I’m only 15, I still can’t drive
33:Ever ran out of gas? No
34:Favorite kind of sandwich? Chicken
35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? Rice lolz
36:What is your usual bedtime? I ain’t Cinderella.Oh and sleep is for the weak
37:Are you lazy? Yea
38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? I remember being Batgirl, fairy princess and a witch lol
39:What is your Chinese astrological sign? Tiger??
40:How many languages can you speak? 4 if sarcasm is considered a language
41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions? none
42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs? What the hell are lincoln logs?
43:Are you stubborn? Sortaaa
44:Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Leno
45:Ever watch soap operas? Sometimes hAHAHA #guiltypleasure
46:Are you afraid of heights? Ya
47:Do you sing in the car? No lol
48:Do you sing in the shower? Sometimes
49:Do you dance in the car? Cool kids don’t dance
50:Ever used a gun? Water gun gratata I’m only a child bro
51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Februaryyy
52:Do you think musicals are cheesy? Nah
53:Is Christmas stressful? YES
54:Ever eat a pierogi? A what?
55:Favorite type of fruit pie? Excuse?
56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? ROCKSTAR LOLZ
57:Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? YES!!
59:Take a vitamin daily? When I was in school ya
60:Wear slippers? Yes
61:Wear a bath robe? Used to lol I change in the bathroom now
62:What do you wear to bed? Pajamas and a comfy shirt
64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Nada I don’t live in the States.
65:Nike or Adidas? Nike
66:Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos
67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? THIS IS HARD but peanuts
68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? Nope
69:Ever take dance lessons? No. I told you, cool kids don’t dance
70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Ya performing and touring the world because that’s what he’s doing now GRATATA
71:Can you curl your tongue? Sorta?
72:Ever won a spelling bee? No and never will ever again because one time, I entered a spelling bee and I almost cried after because I couldn’t spell abbreviation. Never doing that again.
73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yesss
74:Own any record albums? What do you mean record albums? Are those vinyls?
75:Own a record player? No
76:Regularly burn incense? I don’t like the smell of incense
77:Ever been in love? HAHAHAHAhahahA ya
78:Who would you like to see in concert? 5SOS or Ed Sheeran or One Direction UGHGUGH UGH
79:What was the last concert you saw? n/a
80:Hot tea or cold tea? hot
81:Tea or coffee? coffee
82:Sugar or snickerdoodles? Sugar
83:Can you swim well? I don’t know, you tell me.
84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Everyone can. Fun fact: You can’t die by holding your breath.
85:Are you patient? Depends if I had a good day/mood
86:DJ or band, at a wedding? THIS IS HARD IDK DJ?
87:Ever won a contest? No 😦 😦
88:Ever have plastic surgery? Nope
89:Which are better black or green olives? Black
90:Can you knit or crochet? No lol but if I did, I’d knit a boyfriend
91:Best room for a fireplace? Living room?
92:Do you want to get married? Yea I guess
93:If married, how long have you been married? MARRIED TO HARRY STYLES BOOM PANES
94:Who was your HS crush? HahAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhaHA let’s not talk about it
95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? ya
96:Do you have kids? no
97:Do you want kids? I guess if Luke Hemmings want to father my kids lol I kid
98:Whats your favorite color? Gold/Teal
99:Do you miss anyone right now? Yaaa [cue Come Back, Be Here by Taylor Swift lol I kid]



1: What are you wearing? Right now? Pajamas and my team t-shirt when I was in highschool ol
2: Ever been in love? Yaaa
3: Ever had a terrible breakup? No
4: How tall are you? 5’2
5: How much do you weigh? A ton?? Lol kidding. I don’t know, I don’t check
6: Any tattoos? Nah
7: Any piercings? Both ears
8: OTP? I HAVE A LOT: Zalfie, Narry, Cake, Harrika etc
9: Favorite show? American Horror Story, Awkward, HIMYM
10: Favorite bands? Arctic Monkeys, Hot Chelle Rae, 5SOS, The Vamps, Vampire Weekend, The Maine, ATL
11: Something you miss? Being a child
12: Favorite song? I HAVE A LOT
13: How old are you? 15
14: Zodiac sign? Cancer
15: Quality you look for in a partner? Basically if you’re Luke Hemmings or Niall Horan, you have already won my heart
16: Favorite Quote? fries before guys
17: Favorite actor? Ansel Elgort, Evan Peters
18: Favorite color? Gold/Teal
19: Loud music or soft? Depends
20: Where do you go when you’re sad? Twitter
21: How long does it take you to shower? 20-30 minutes
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? An hour or 2
23: Ever been in a physical fight? No lol
24: Turn on? If boys do this thing where they strech and their shirt lifts idk HAHAHAHA also good smelling people ya
25: Turn off? someone messy 😦
26. Reason you joined WordPress? I wanted to blog lol and Blogspot wasn’t the platform for me
27: Fears? The future, dogs, any living, breathing creature, big crowds
28: Last thing that made you cry? Extended preview of the song Amnesia
29: Last time you said you loved someone? The other day whilst spamming Luke Hemmings on Twitter
30: Meaning behind your blog name? idk I just thought of it
31: Last book you read? Love and Misadventure by Lang Leav
32: The book you’re currently reading? Eleanor and Park (yes I’m not yet done with this ugh)
33: Last show you watched? Awkward
34: Last person you talked to? My friend lol
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? I’m his daughter
36: Favorite food? fries
37: Place you want to visit? Australiaaa
38: Last place you were? The mall
39: Do you have a crush? Yea?
40: Last time you kissed someone? idk i don’t kiss people lol
41: Last time you were insulted? Last week
42: Favorite flavor of sweet? Laffy Taffy?
43: What instruments do you play? Piano, a bit of guitar
44: Favorite piece of jewelery? Any arm candy
45: Last sport you played? I don’t play sports
46: Last song you sang? Voodoo doll by 5sos
47: Favorite chat up line? ARE YOU A MAGICIAN BC ABRACADAYUMMM
48: Have you ever used it? On twitter
49: Last time you hung out with anyone? Last week
50: Who should answer these questions next? YOU READING THIS 🙂


On a serious note

Hiii everyone. Throughout the 3 years of this blog, I probably haven’t posted a serious post wherein I talk about what’s wrong with the world, or have made a stand about something. So I would just like to take this moment to talk about something really important.

Ah, second hand smoking. According to this website, it happens when hen non-smokers are exposed to SHS (second hand smoke)  so non-smokers who breathe in SHS take in nicotine and toxic chemicals by the same route smokers do. The more SHS you breathe, the higher the level of these harmful chemicals in your body.

(For more info: http://www.cancer.org/cancer/cancercauses/tobaccocancer/secondhand-smoke)

So apparently, if you stand next close to someone smoking, and you inhale it it’s like you’re taking in the same thing they’re taking. Okay for the knowledge of everyone reading this, cigarettes (the smoke) include harmful chemicals like: Hydrogen cyanide, carbon monoxide, ammonia and a lot more which you can read about here . And the smoke inhaled by the people around the smoker can develop cancer; lung cancer to be exact, heart disease, respiratory illness.

So if ever you inhale smoke from a cigarette, immediately get out of the area. Close your windows, spray air freshener so you won’t entirely smell the smoke, cover your nose with a handkerchief or something.

And to all you smokers out there, drop that pack of cigs and find something else you can get addicted to. Like knitting, yes knitting! Or start a book club, exercise, find a good band and get addicted to it. You won’t kill yourself or somebody else with those activities.

So if ever you guys know some kind of organization that helps stop or that is against second hand smoke, please tell me. I would totally join and raise awareness about this matter. Thank you. Have a nice day ahead everyone xx

P.S: Wow this is really good haha. There are a lot of things that concern me just like why is it that it’s already 2014 and there are still not flying cars. I am sad and disgusted. Y’all people know how to do touchscreen TVs and shit but you don’t know how to make a flying car? Oh and if you have a stand on something, tell the world. You’ll never know probably someone out there has the same belief as you and both of you can start something to change something 😉 (do you get iiiittt hah)

P.P.S: Those above are just my opinions, don’t hate me for it if ever you don’t agree with me. We are 2 different people. I am cool, you are not. Pretty much like, I am Beyoncé and you are some basic loser. Byeee and I do hope you learned something from this xx


The universe has a plan


But I just noticed that HIMYM ended when my high school life ended.   HIMYM started when my grade school life started. So, I feel like this show grew with me.

Wait, I need to compare this to my high school life because I haven’t really posted anything graduation related and I left highschool a week ago. You see, the show started with Ted and Robin. The show also ended with Ted and Robin. Same goes where I started. I was at the gym floor sitting during freshman Social Orientation with eyes full of hopes and dreams and unclear what’s ahead of me, that was June 7, 2010. And that’s where it also ended, me sitting at the gym floor during Graduation. Still with eyes full of hopes and dreams, I know what I want but still unclear of what is ahead of me, that was March 24, 2014.

And like most HIMYM fans, I don’t know where to go from here. There won’t be any episode after this. Just like high school.  I also don’t know where to go from here. No more (well in my case) Chemistry, Physics, Music. And that’s just saaad… not. HAH 🙂

One episode, Marshall said “” … looking out and thinking, “Man, everyone here means so much to me.” A bunch of those people, you know, I haven’t seen them since.””  Then Future Ted starts to talk “And that’s how it goes, kids. The friends, neighbors, drinking buddies and partners in crime you love so much when you’re young, as the years go by, you just lose touch. That being said, I did manage to keep track of a few people.” I wish I would keep track of a few people from my batch. Though I’ve only known them for 4 years, they mean a lot to me. They’re like the brothers and sisters I never had 🙂

Also I want to include what Barney  said ” Whatever you do in life, it isn’t legendary if your friends are not there to see it.”  Truedat. To my friends, you know who you are, I love you all so so so much and I would like to thank you so much for everything. Oh and just what like Robin said, I promise to be there during the big moments. I really have a good feeling that I would still be friends with all of you and fyi, there won’t be hanging out anymore… Only catching up.

Before I end this post, let’s go back to the title of the post “The universe has a plan” yes it has. And it’s still in motion. This high school ending this is just one part. There are a lot more. 🙂

And to all the kids who are going to high school this year, enjoy it. Yes, high school is scary but it’s gonna be alright. It isn’t like the ones you see in movies so don’t worry. You’re going to find friends, awesome friends you will cherish the rest of your life. You will find someone temporary but you have no idea that that temporary person could change your life forever. You will fail but that’s okay because 10 years from now, that math test you failed won’t matter anymore especially when you’re on top of the world. You’re going to find people who you’re going to hate but once you find out the reason why they are like that, you’re finally going to stop and just understand. I hope you understand. I hope you fall in love, fall out of love, learn and grow as much as you can. Trust me on this.

You better hold on tight, it’s going to be a bumpy ride. But it will be worth it, kid. Those tears, sweat, sleepless nights will be all worth it. 4 years may seem a long time but I swear time passes by so fast. It so surreal. But I hope whatever you experience, you would still stay legendary. 🙂 x

And I guess this would be the last post in the category, “Senior Year” 🙂


I don’t want tomorrow to come

I don’t want it to come even if I waited years for tomorrow to come.

Because tomorrow, I have to say goodbye to everything. To my friends who have been there for the past 4 years. To the people who have taught me lessons. To the places. To you. I don’t even know when I’m going to see all of my batchmates again. Maybe in a few months after summer is over. Maybe in a few years when we have finally gotten over highschool. Maybe in a few more years, when have our own thing, own families, own lives. Maybe never again. And I’m scared because I love all these people and became overly attached to some of them (HAH).

And I don’t want that yet. Not tomorrow. I’m not ready. But obviously, the clock will strike 12 and another day will come. Whatever happens, I just have to face it. Because it’s life. Nothing lasts forever.

And saying goodbye also means closing the chapter and opening a new one. And I’m pretty excited about that. 🙂


Teenage Runaway

It has been a year since my Junior prom oh my god!!! Hahahaha. Like I remember this day last year, I was seeing signs everywhere that day but nah. It’s just crazy how time flies so fast! My senior prom (and my last huhu) would be on Wednesday. And I just got my dress and bought my shoes yesterday. I still don’t have a bag and accessories. But most prob I’ll be using my old accessories, who buys jewelry (like the original expensive ones) just for one night? Not me ha ha #mrkrabs

Anyway, school was alright this week. I mean this week was hell for everyone but it’s alright. Just a few weeks more then we’re all out of hell.

I got a new laptop a.k.a my grad gift from the parentalz waahhhh. But it’s not yet with me obvs. But hooray for no more always plugging in my laptop because the battery’s broken and no more broken left click. 🙂 Hello touchscreen and Windows 8.1. Hehehehe. Yey.

I have a new book. It’s “This Is What Happy Looks Like” by Jennifer E. Smith.  I’m still in the 4th chapter but so far it’s not boring or anything. “If fate sent you and email, would you answer?” Well. Time to buy a pet pig and email some random person.

My final defense would be on Monday and I just hope I finish this Powerpoint and the flyers by tomorrow or else we’re dead.


In other news, online libel was legalized this week. I guess I’ll see you all in jail.


My friend has this freaky “power” that when you ask her a question about the future or even the present she would dream about the answer to it. Like wow???  I asked her one time when I will have a boyfriend/love life and she dreamed of it and the next day she told me “4 years” wHAT. WHAT. WHAT. I can’t wait that long  jk.Wow. My life would be so so much different 4 years from now. And I’m both scared and excited for it.

Okayyy, game face is on and Powerpoint is open. Thesis time. LET’S DO THIS

That is all xx


Anyare of the week

If you have been following my Tumblr since 2011, you would know that I posted personal stuff there. Haha. I stopped when I discovered this site and also because people from school started following me. Also, you would know that I’d do this “Anyare of the day” where I tell stuff about my day. And I’m bringing it here just because… (It isn’t day because I’ll be sharing my whole week)

I am so freaking stressed with school. I should be reviewing Calculus(because I don’t get it) and starting to research about my Physics problem set (again because I don’t get it)

Valentines is in 5 days. I can already smell the roses I’m not going to get. Okay.

Girls who have nice boyfriends like really nice boyfriends should be thankful and shouldn’t be choosy on what they want for Valentines okay like wtf if your boyfriend gives you a pink teddy bear and you don’t like that pink teddy bear, learn to like it bc jezus not all of us gets a pink teddy bear on the 14th of February.

Anxiety <<< ugh 😦

People hate me. I hate me. It is mutual so I don’t care if you hate me. But when you hate my friends I will hate you too and we will all hate each other. You have the chosen the wrong enemy, gurl.

Where are my friends when I need them the most like oh my god 😦 I am a sad human being.

I’m almost done with you. All those mean stares, indirects not to me but my friends and (I DONT REALLY LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE MAKE PARINIG ESPECIALLY IN REAL LIFE THAT’S JUST SO ASKDNAG MAKING PARINIG ISN’T A GAME OF LIMBO THIS ISN’T HOW LOW CAN YOU GO) It’s 2014. Don’t you think it’s time to change and mature? I’m pretty sure you weren’t raised in a barn and your parents taught you manners and how not to be rude to people. Hate all you want, but all you’re doing will go to waste because at the end of the day you’ll be the lower one, the lowest in fact. Don’t even tell me that I am insecure because I don’t like you (if ever… someday. But you haven’t told that us yet but still…) because who would be insecure of your ugly personality? Gurl please, it’s what’s inside that counts. You can use make up to cover up your face but it won’t cover your attitude. 🙂 #sorrynotsorry #justsaying

HIMYM IS SO INTENSE. Ted let go of Robin, literally. That was just idk what to feel anymore.

43 days and I’m out of highschool

Thinking of applying for a summer job idk 😦 Oh did you know that I have 4 months of summer so that means I’ll be going back on August hyfr 4 months is enough to get my mental health back

“Just say yes” will be my motto this 2014. Sounds familiar right? Yes, I just watched Zoe Sugg’s video heh. Oh and watch out for my post about that 🙂

I had my photoshoot for my creative shot yesterday. Aw special thanks to my friend heh. I will be posting pictures as soon as she sends them to me. 🙂 But of course, I won’t be posting my creative shot yet haha 😉

I’m just so busy I don’t even know where the boys are anymore. Like wat. Haha 😦

Kodaline is dabomb.com. I love all their songs aaahhh.

That is all xx