Until the dawn (16 x 17)

This is my first post as a 17 year old. Wow. I’m so emosh right now because I started this vlog when I was 13 and I’m still here 4 years later /trying/ to vlog. First of all, thank you to everyone who continues reading my blog posts even if it sucks and I keep ranting about things happening in my lame teenage life. Well, I have to admit, I had a phase where I wanted to take this blog to a higher level for more people to read it and for me to get known as a legit blogger. I even delete some posts where I ranted and indirected some people especially my posts back in highschool. I deleted some because I was hella dramatic and blinded by the unrequited love(s) I had and I am so over it now HAHA #maturity.

Over time, I felt like it was okay for me not to take this blog to a higher level because that would mean taking it too seriously. I created this blog because I got inspired by the bloggers I follow and I wanted to share my life because lame how it seems, I want people who are in the same age group as I am to realize that it’s okay to be awkward, to be a loser, it’s okay to be obsessed with bands, books, movies, weird shit that people will judge if they find out, to be sad, to be beyond happy. Though, I’m not considering in collaborating with blogs and or brands/online shops, that doesn’t mean I won’t in the near future. This is 17 year old me talking who knows if I would still want this blog to be purely about my life.

 

Deciding whether or not to keep this blog as something personal or veryyy public was one decision I had to make on my 16th year. My 16th was an overwhelming year. I went to college, did a lot of crazy shit, didn’t do a lot of crazy shit for some time but went through a lot of it, almost died while in a cab, went to a One Direction concert, lost some, gained some, been hella happy, been hella sad. A lot of ups and downs but also twists and turns.

16th was an overwhelming year, I want 17th to be an adventurous one. I want to be like Margo Roth Spiegelman and go on crazy adventures this year; Alone or with friends/fam. I want to try new things for the first time. Because just like what Margo said “Your comfort zone is this big and everything you want is way out there.” 

I don’t know where and what I’ll be a year from now which is pretty scary but also excites me. I’m trying my best to learn everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me. Well, I’m just trying my best at everything.

Here’s to the 17th year on this planet. To more adventures, great opportunities, brighter days, and bacon for breakfast.

That is aall xx

ENDER14

 

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