Until the dawn (16 x 17)

This is my first post as a 17 year old. Wow. I’m so emosh right now because I started this vlog when I was 13 and I’m still here 4 years later /trying/ to vlog. First of all, thank you to everyone who continues reading my blog posts even if it sucks and I keep ranting about things happening in my lame teenage life. Well, I have to admit, I had a phase where I wanted to take this blog to a higher level for more people to read it and for me to get known as a legit blogger. I even delete some posts where I ranted and indirected some people especially my posts back in highschool. I deleted some because I was hella dramatic and blinded by the unrequited love(s) I had and I am so over it now HAHA #maturity.

Over time, I felt like it was okay for me not to take this blog to a higher level because that would mean taking it too seriously. I created this blog because I got inspired by the bloggers I follow and I wanted to share my life because lame how it seems, I want people who are in the same age group as I am to realize that it’s okay to be awkward, to be a loser, it’s okay to be obsessed with bands, books, movies, weird shit that people will judge if they find out, to be sad, to be beyond happy. Though, I’m not considering in collaborating with blogs and or brands/online shops, that doesn’t mean I won’t in the near future. This is 17 year old me talking who knows if I would still want this blog to be purely about my life.

 

Deciding whether or not to keep this blog as something personal or veryyy public was one decision I had to make on my 16th year. My 16th was an overwhelming year. I went to college, did a lot of crazy shit, didn’t do a lot of crazy shit for some time but went through a lot of it, almost died while in a cab, went to a One Direction concert, lost some, gained some, been hella happy, been hella sad. A lot of ups and downs but also twists and turns.

16th was an overwhelming year, I want 17th to be an adventurous one. I want to be like Margo Roth Spiegelman and go on crazy adventures this year; Alone or with friends/fam. I want to try new things for the first time. Because just like what Margo said “Your comfort zone is this big and everything you want is way out there.” 

I don’t know where and what I’ll be a year from now which is pretty scary but also excites me. I’m trying my best to learn everyday to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me. Well, I’m just trying my best at everything.

Here’s to the 17th year on this planet. To more adventures, great opportunities, brighter days, and bacon for breakfast.

That is aall xx

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It’s not so bad, it’s alright

U GUYS. Okay so my birthday post would be tomorrow bc I’m rly busy right now editing a movie for Lit. Wow okay did I just say my surprise post 😦 Yeah. Anyway, since I have like a 2 hour break tomorrow, I think I’m going to finish Paper Towns because I’m currently listening to the album of the movie and it’s sooo good #medjindie hahaha. I read Paper Towns like 2 years ago but I need to read it again in order to feel the feelz since the movie’s coming out a day after my birthday.

That is aall xx

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Dark clouds have lifted

I just got home from my friend’s debut. Hella tired but had fun though even if I had to go home earlier. And kinda suffering sepanx because I was around friends that I missed (like I don’t see them much because they’re in a different city now). Anyway, expect a longer post over the weekend.

That is aall xx

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I can feel your electricity

Holla guys! I’m supposed to be studying but I just remembered I didn’t post “June Favorites” and a playlist. I’m going to do a late June favorites but if I forget, I might not do any. I’m just going to save all my favorites from June and add it on my July favorites post at the end of the month. Before I stress over an exam I have to take tomorrow a group requirement that turned into individual work since my groupmates are so ugh and of course, the suspense if school gets suspended tomorrow or not because of the weather, here’s the July playlist.

 

JULY PLAYLIST //

ILYSM by LANY

All Night by R5

Talking Body by Tove Lo

Back of the Car by RAC

Sober by Childish Gambino

Black Magic by Little Mix

Cold Arms by Mumford and Sons

1965 by Zella Day

Headlights by KYKO

The Kids Are Alright by WALLA

L$D by A$AP Rocky

Closer To Me by ACADEMY

Feeling Electric by Parade of Lights

Forrest Gump by Frank Ocean

Worth It by Fifth Harmony

Stay the Same by TWICEYOUNG

Cold Coffee by Ed Sheeran

Not Done Loving You by Lewis Fieldhouse

We’re Gonna Be Alright by The Runaway Club

Alice by Avril Lavigne (Oldie but goodie 😉 )

Hurricane by HASLEY

All those caps lock artists and songs DOE. hahaha. Okay.

That is aall xx

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