Look my way and never love me

This week has been so so great. Like really great, no joke. It has been the best one yet recently to be honest. Though half of it was hassle because I had to do stupid stuff for my friends like do 2 song covers for a CD mix, text an unknown number, call my other friend for 8 times because her phone was off, hold a frickin balloon all the way to a restaurant , it was alright and worth it because they liked my gifts for them and I’m so happy gosh *insert crying face emoji*

Now that most of my friends are 18/turning 18, I feel so left out and scared but at the same time I’m happy for them because they can go to clubs, drive legally and basically do all the things they’ve been doing since they were 15 legally hahaha?? They’re still my friends but they’re legal and it’s so weird because I’ve known them when they were 12 and now they’re 18 which makes me know them for half a decade and it scares me so much because will they still be my friends after another half a decade. GOSH I need to stop lol.

It’s the last week of June so it’s July in a few days and hellz yeah birthday month. I still don’t know what I want to do for my birthday haha.

Anywayyy, I need to go now because I still have to do school work uguhugh.

That is aall xx

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Grant my last request

First week of the term is done so I have more or less 5 weeks before I go for another short break. The first week of school has just been sooo dragging and I reckon it would still continue. My teachers are cool I guess. I knew some of classmates because they were my blockmates before but the thing is I’m not close with them so I act so awkward around them ++ my new classmates annoy tf out of me like gosh huhu I’m not sure if it’s that one person who insulted me before or if it’s because I’m classmates with boys who thinks they’re cool but they end up being jej.  HAHAHAHA Just kidding I don’t want to judge so you do you pare. You do you.

Ugh moving on. Since I’m only until 1:30 everyday, I can hang with my friends after school woop woop. I was supposed to watch a movie with my friends yesterday but Kyla couldn’t (THIS IS UR SHOUTOUT YOU’RE WELCOME). So since my other friend really wanted to watch a movie, I also agreed to see one after school to kill time since I didn’t have to do anything at home. My friend and I was supposed to see Insidious 3 but everyone we asked told us it was boring so we saw Jurassic World and it was sooo soo good. Legiiit. 10/10, would recommend. The old bae, Chris Pratt + new bae Nick Robinson + genetic killer dinosaur  = heart eye emojis x 100

Earlier this week, I also thought of getting a part time job like tutoring kids or something because idk I just need extra money so I don’t always get from my parents and I would also want to save up for travelling and for my future car HAHA. I also thought of being a Youtuber earlier on this week while I was in class.

Speaking of Youtubers, Joe Sugg and Caspar Lee are going here next week guguugh 😦 😦 IM SO SAD BUT I HOPE THEY GO TO THE CITY WHERE I LIVE AFTER THE SHOW. Apparently, Oli’s going too HUHU. Joe also mentioned the PH thrice on his latest vlog.

Today is the 21st and it’s father’s day. So happy father’s day to my dad, I can never thank you enough for teaching me how to own up to my mistakes, for making me realize at a young age that I’m not cut out for any sport and for the thick eyebrows yooo. Happy father’s day to all the dads out there also! Now that today is the 21st, we’re down to the last 30 days of me being 16. I do not know how to feel about it because 17 would mean the last year of me being a minor. WHAT.

 

That is aall xx

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The tides they pull you out

I’m going back to school tomorrow oh?? And I know I haven’t really been active 😦 I was supposed to post 2 new posts this week but I didn’t do it. My brain wasn’t really working lol. Anyway here’s what I’ve been up to this week

I started All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. I bought the book when I was in Manila 3 months ago HAHA. But I just started it a few days ago. I would’ve started it earlier but again, April and May were very busy.

I didn’t buy notebooks yet because I’m still thinking if I should use my old notebook or fillers this short term. I only have 3 subjects sooo.. ya.

I’ve been binge watching vlogs on Youtube for the past few days. HAHA. And I just found out Jack Howard can sing. THE BOY CAN SING.

I did the DIY planner. Wow it was okay because I was able to customize it but hassle though. 😦 Speaking of hassle, have I mentioned I stood in line for 4 and a half hours just to pay my tuition??? But thank God for friends who bought me food while I was in line. :p Also I passed all my subjects. I was a bit disappointed in my math grade but I’m still thankful I passed. Things like that happen, maybe I just really need to push myself a little bit more haha.

I woke up so late today because I slept at about 3 am. And the first thing I did when I woke up was check Twitter. Guess who’s tweet I saw first? Niall’s. Telling that they included 18 and No Control on the setlist. I FLIPPED. I waited for both those songs for so long. IT’S SO GOOD LIVE. If you listened to the album version, you need to listen to the live version. Niall sang Zayn’s verses and I’m so idk, Niall had one job and boy did he do a good one. It’s just so good.

Aaand I’m turning 17 in a month what whaat. But before that, I need to fix my things for tomorrow. Aaaah. Back to setting my alarm to 6:05AM :p

That is aall xx

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A place in Brooklyn

…Brooklyn Beckham’s heart. Jk. Have you seen the pictures of him and the One Direction boys though? My life is complete.

You see, I was supposed to do a special post tonight but since I caught up with some friends via chat, my trail of thought was gone by the time I wanted to continue what I was writing. Hopefully, those thoughts would come back and the post would be up some other day in the future but for now, let me entertain you with some stuff.

I finished Anna and the French Kiss and I AM SO KILIG I WANT MY OWN ST. CLAIR. I also finished P.S I Still Love You by Jenny Han and I will write another post for that book /for a review/ because it’s just too great and the trilogy has a special place in my heart so that’s why.

I went to the dentist yesterday and I think I don’t have to get braces anymore (yaaas)

I haven’t seen my grades yet but I hope I passed all my subjects because I’ll be taking an advanced subject because I want to finish all GenEd subjects earlier 😦 HUHU PLZ 😦

I am also so lost right now because I don’t know if I should shift or not. Or transfer schools or not HUHU. My friends are all shifting and transferring to follow their dreams and I’m here crying over my OTPs. :\ Idk but you know what they saaay: You have to get lost before you get found. Lmao. The thing is, I feel like I’ve been lost for way too long. I NEED A SIGN or something. 😦

That is aall xx

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Another night on Mars

It’s June already what what WHAT?

JUNE PLAYLIST

Life Of the Party by Shawn Mendes

Magic by San Cisco

Home We’ll Go (Take My Hand) by Walk Off The Earth, Steve Aoki

All I Want by Passion Pit

U Make Me Wanna by Blue

Papercut by Troye Sivan ft. Zedd

My Sweet Summer by Dirty Heads

Let It Go by James Bay

Marvin Gaye by Charlie Puth ft. Meghan Trainor

Eventually by Tame Impala

Jackie and Wilson by Hozier

This Is The Life by Two Door Cinema Club

Where Are U Now by  Skrillex and Diplo ft Justin Bieber

No One Needs To Know by Jungle Giants

Sound Of Your Heart by Shawn Hook

Infinity by Kurt Schneider & Macy Kate

Somebody by Jukebox The Ghost

Always Gold by Radical Face

Flaws (Deep Chills Remix) by Bastille

Alien Days by MGMT

Cacoon (Acoustic) by Catfish And The Bottlemen

Sweet Escape by Alesso, Sirena

That is aall xx

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