Midnight Memories

I’m supposed to be reviewing for my Chemistry exam tomorrow. But nahhh, I’m making an album review for Midnight Memories in honor of 1D Day. So um technically the album will be officially out tomorrow. But like TMH, some tracks were leaked and next thing we know, the whole album got leaked. Anywaayyy, this album was leaked when I was in school last Monday. I had to wait for a few hours to listen to it and while I was at it, I broke my little toe. HAH. But who cares? HOORAY FOR NEW SONGS!

I wish they put this as the official album cover.

{Best Song Ever} “Said her name was Georgia Rose. And her daddy was a dentist”

Ah. BSE. If I’m not mistaken this was released some time July before my birthday? This song  is upbeat and fun. You can actually copy the choreo from the video if you want. Heh. This is like the LWWY of this album. The one you’ll be skipping when it comes on shuffle.

{Story Of My Life} “Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage”

LIKE THIS SONG HINTED ME THAT THIS RECORD WOULD BE DIFFRENT-ISH FROM THE FIRST TWO. WOW. THIS SONG IS JUST INCREDIBLE JEZUS. I MAY OR MAY HAVE CRIED WHEN THIS CAME OUT. Oh it has this kind of Passenger  x Mumford and Sons vibe to it.

{Diana} “I speak a different language but I still hear you call.”

This song was the first one that got leaked hah. Um if ever you’re having a bad day, you need to listen to this. The boys know  what we’re going through okay oh my god they just understand

{Through The Dark} “Even if you scream and shout
It will come back to you, back to you”

THE CHORUS IS FREAKIN CATCHY OKAY AND ONE OF MY FAVORITE TRACKS. And it’s like 1D meets The Lumineers yep.

{Alive} “Don’t look back. Live your life. Even if it’s only for tonight.”

Zayn starts out this song. And you know when Zayn starts a song, it’s gonna be a good one.

{Better Than Words} Cause words ain’t good enough. There’s no way I can explain your love, no “

Like imagine one of the boys singing this to you. W O W. And you can get pregnant from the “oh-s” and “awoo-s” of Liam and Niall.

{Does He Know} “Your secret tattoo, the way you change moods
The songs that you sing when you’re all alone”

The first time I heard this, I was like “This sounds like Jessie’s Girl OH MY GOD” and I started freaking out because Jessie’s Girl is one of my favorite songs of all time. And that’s when I started imagining what if I have a boyfriend and Liam’s my friend…..with benefits OH MY AZSDFGKJBS oh hahahaha. Yes, there I said it. Hashtag sorry not sorry. Please don’t judge me I’m a teenage girl with raging hormones.

{Little White Lies} “If this room was burning, I wouldn’t even notice because you’ve been taking up my mind”

LIAM WROTE THIS SONG OKAY. My baby love wrote this song. Hahaha. I love the chorus of this song because of the beat.

{Midnight Memories} “I don’t know where I’m going but I’m finding my way. Same old shh but a different day”

THIS SONG MADE ME CRY EVEN IF IT WAS UPBEAT BECAUSE THIS TRACK MADE ME REALIZE THEY GREW UP THEY’RE NOT PUPPIES ANYMORE LOUIS WILL BE TURNING 22 NEXT MONTH, HARRY WILL BE 20 ON FEBRUARY, LIAM, ZAYN AND NIALL WILL BE 21 NEXT YEAR AND I DON’T KNOW I JUST W O W. REMEMBER WHEN  LOUIS WAS THE ONLY LEGAL ONE AND THEY WERE TATTOOLESS AND THEY HAD BAD FASHION SENSE. AND IN THIS TRACK  THEY ALMOST CURSED OKAY WOW MY BABIES ARE BADASSES AND I DONT KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD BE HAPPY ABOUT IT OR NOT. (#CAPSLOCKPARAINTENSE)

{Right Now} “And we won’t be going home for so long, for so long.
But I know, I won’t be on my own, on my own.”

I don’t like this song that much tho. Hah. But it’s still pretty good. 🙂

{Something Great} “One day, you’ll come in to my world and say it all. You’ll say we’ll be together even though you’re lost.”

This song gives me hope okay?! HAHA. This song is for my future boyfriend (chos) but seriously! Haha and this reminds me of Ted Mosby omg.

{Little Black Dress} “Little black dress. Who you doin’ it for? Little black dress I can’t take anymore.”

C’mon C’mon v.2. I swear.

{Strong} “I’m not scared of love. ‘Cause when I’m not with you I’m weaker. Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong?”

Why does this song give me extreme Larry feels?! Oh that’s right because it screams LARRY ADKGBBSDG HARRY MAKES LOUIS STRONG AND VICEVERSA MY HEART HURTS WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF

{Why Don’t We Go There} “Skydive, you and I, with just these clothes. The secret’s safe with me. There’s no right time or place.”

This song sounds like Animal by Neon Trees, not even kidding. It’s so catchy and you can dance to it 😉

{You and I} “I figured it out from black and white. Seconds and hours. Maybe they had to take some time”

Umm I suggest you listen to the song before watching this video because I swear you won’t take this song seriously if you watch it first. Hahaha.

{Happily} “I don’t care what people say when we’re together.
You know I wanna be the one to hold you when you sleep.
I just want it to be you and I forever.”

Harry wrote this song…. this song is for me. Hahahaa (agad agaaad? Feeling lang? Lol jk) This is one of my favorite songs off of this album.

{Half A Heart} “Only half a blue sky. Kinda there but not quite. I’m walking around with just one shoe. I’m half a heart without you. I’m half a man at best, with half an arrow in my chest.”

HUHUHUHUH I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH OKAY IF I HAD TO RANK ALL THE SONGS THIS WOULD BE NUMBER 2 (Because the next song will be my first okay) BUT YEAH. If Stronger screams Larry, this screams Payzer. I swear. I can’t wait to hear it live and I can’t wait to see Liam sing this. I just could imagine his face. The hurt, the emotions, THE F E ELS. LOL HUHUHU.  This sounds like More Than This. Oh speaking of, Ed didn’t write any songs for the boys on this album.  😦 Maybe next album, aye? 🙂

{Don’t Forget Where You Belong}

 “Living out of cases.
Packing up and taking off.
Made a lot of changes.
But not forgetting who I was.

On the horizon.
Oh I know I know I know I know the moon will be rising.
Back home.

Don’t forget where you belong.
Oh, don’t forget where you belong.
Oh, if you ever feel alone.
Don’t. 

You were never on your own.
And the proof is in this song.

I’ve been away for ages.
But, I’ve got everything I need.
I’m flicking through the pages.
I’ve written in my memory.

I feel like I’m dreaming.
So I know I know I know I know I’m never leaving.
I won’t go.”

Okay, so this is my ultimate fave from this album. I mean you can totes feel the sadness here. The boys are away from home most of the time to do their jobs and make people happy. But in this song, you can see that fame and money didn’t change them. They’re still the boys that started from the stairs and made video diaries.

And another reason why I love this song so much is because of this line “Oh, if you ever feel alone. Don’t.  You were never on your own. And the proof is in this song.” The boys want us to know we’re never alone. They’re here for us. Not physically, but probably through their songs. It could help us. GUYS OMG OKAY IM GONNA STOP NOW BECAUSE I THINK IM GONNA CRY AGAIN. Don’t Forget Where You Belong is really a great song and this would help me if ever I go far from home in the future. I swear the boys deserve a Grammy for this. 😉

Anyway, even though you downloaded Midnight Memories illegally, still buy it on iTunes or the CD itself. It’s a great record, it’s not like UAN and TMH. It’s not bubblegum pop anymore. Midnight Memories is totes for us teenagers and not 8 year old carrots can’t relate and that’s what makes this album special. Heh. Buy iiiit, you won’t regret it. I promise.

Okay that’s aaall. I’m going to review now. xx

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If this room was burning

– I WOULDN’T EVEN NOTICEEE ‘CAUSE YOU’VE BEEN ON MY MIND. Um weell, you’ll know this song on Monday a.k.a the day Midnight Memories gets /officially/ released. (Yes, it has been leaked LOL)

– Got home a day early from camp. I was a quartermaster but my legs hurt from the jogging and doing pumps yesterday morning. But it was ayt. For the record, if it didn’t rain I was supposed to complete the whole 2 and 1/2 days. BUT, I did complete 37 hours of it.

-MY RIGHT LITTLE TOE IS STILL SWOLLEN AND I THINK IT’S BROKEN MEH

– Still deciding to get that 5C for Christmas. Apparently, I can swap it with my BB and just pay 9K for it rather than paying 29K++ for cashout. But I still don’t know huhuhu.

– CATCHING FIRE PLS PLS

– *asks grandma to knit me a boyfriend this christmas*

– I still have a lot of things to tell you guys but meh I’m too lazy to think and write.

Bye guys I’ll just  be back later or tomorrow 🙂 x

 

 

 

 

 

I love you more than cupcakes

The title of this post is so landi but it’s connected, I swear. (Um well, I have a new fave sweatshirt and it says “I love you more than cupcakes” on it. Heh okay)

❤ This week went by so fast. Like woah.

❤ Had a blast last Wednesday. Great Minds Meet. HEH 🙂 Thank you, batchmates!

❤ OH BAKIT KAYO NAGTILIAN NUNG SUMAYAW SIYA?! BAKIT HEART THROB BA?! BAKIT ARTISTA?! BAKIT CRUSH NG BAYAN?! JERON TENG ANG PEG? HA SAGUTIN NIYO AKO. HAHAHAHAHA. JK

❤ Bought a lot of things from the dept store this week. Mostly pens. Heh. They’re cheap but the quality’s good.

❤ Tuesday was like an episode of Awkward. I swear. It was my soul’s birthday and I didn’t know. During haustus, I had to give the donations for the Yolanda victims to you know who. And fak it was just so embarrassing; the kind of embarrassing wherein you want drink bleach and jump off a window embarrassing. Sigh.

❤ Is it bad that I ship Barney and the mother than Ted and the mother. Oh.

❤ I took the last college entrance exam yesterday. The DLSUCET. Wow. The math part, just wow.

❤ COINCIDENCE. WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY WAS A MERE COINCIDENCE.

❤ Pretty excited for Survival. I’m troopmates with Kyla. HAHA. And she’s my friend who hates me but she’s still friends with me aW LOVE HATE FRIENDSHIP HAH when she found out we were in the same troop she was like “Hindi na ako pupunta” bitch HAHAHAHA KIDDING so I swore I won’t go home the first day. So yeah. I guess I have no choice but to stay and freaking survive. Survival will be on the 21st ’til the 23rd. That means I’ll be missing the first few hours of the 7 hour 1D livestream.

❤ I didn’t embarrass myself during Music class because we practiced the second part. DIIIID YOU KNOW I can sing the Soprano, Tenor, Bass part of Handel’s but not Alto? Haha ha ha

❤ I have a lot of things to share but my laptop charger got destroyed and I’m not really sure when I’ll get a new one. Plus, our desktop keeps on restarting on it’s own and my mom might get it fixed on Tuesday. So yeah huhu

That is aaall xx

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So out of reach

THIS WEEK ON KEEPING UP WITH ERIKA: 

• I kinda failed Physics hahaha ha ha 😦 But for the first time I didn’t cry and didn’t feel bad about it plus my mom didn’t get mad at me. 

• But all my grades went up and my I was legit shocked when I saw my Lit grade, it went up by 6 freaking points omg okay hahaha.

• I’m enjoying my English and Filipino class. HIHI. For the whole grading we’ll be writing and I just enjoy writing.

• I made a new online friend WHEEE. Making friends online is easier online than in real life. Hahaha.

• Accomplished my La Salle forms and passed it. Got my exam permit and I’ll be taking the DLSUCET this coming Saturday. I’m so nervous like I can’t even. This is my dream school, okay? I need to do good on this exam. I could just imagine me wearing a “DLSU” shirt/hoodie next year and going to a UAAP game and cheering “ANIMO LA SALLE” omg heh.

• Oh and if ever Kobe (Paras) joins DLSU in 2015, OA na line up nila okay! With Jeron and AVO (Not sure though when he’s graduating. Is this his last year?)

• My group mate lost her usb. And the soft copy of our thesis is there ugh 😦 I wish she can find it because my copy of the thesis got deleted.

• I don’t have a service anymore so I’ll be commuting every morning ugh because my mom thinks I need to learn because next year if ever I get into a Uni in Manila, of course I have to take a jeep to go there because we don’t have a car. Well, my relatives have a car but I won’t be staying in the family house if ever. And if I don’t go to Manila, obviously I will be taking a jeep to school too.

•Wherever You Are by 5SOS is stuck in my head ugh

•Starbucks is starting to sell their Christmas flavors. Weee. It’s a glorious time to thank God that I live next to John Hay. HEH. So I can just walk there and get a drink 🙂 They released a new flavor, gingerbread latte? Haha. It tastes good but if you don’t like cinnamon, you won’t like it that much. But Peppermint Mocha remains to be my favorite. It’s literally Christmas in a cup.

•I watched The Virgin Suicides years ago. But I didn’t understand it that much. So I watched it again, and tadaaa new fave movie. Haha.

•Still deciding whether to get a 5C this Christmas or not. I already told my dad about it and since he’s not coming home for Christmas this year since he’s going home in time for my graduation on March, he told me to think about it first before I get another plan because my BB contract isn’t up until July 2014. So yeah. Haha.

• Not so freaking excited for Survival. BUT BUT I HOPE THEY CANCEL SURVIVAL AND JUST DONATE THE FUNDS THAT ARE GOING TO BE USED TO THE VICTIMS OF TYPHOON YOLANDA. YES YES. THAT’S A GOOD IDEA. 

• Tom Fletcher and his wife are going to have a baby omg omg omg hahaha

• I hate Jenna Hamilton. She hurt Matty and I will never forgive her for making my bby cry.

• HIMYM update: Robin’s mom isn’t going to the wedding. Ted proposed to the mother at the lighthouse.

• HARRY WENT AS MILEY LAST HALLOWEEN OH M Y GOD

• I got embarrassed during Music class last Friday. My teacher asked us to sing the first two Hallelujahs in Handel’s. Apparently, I sang the Tenor part. 😦

• That is all, I guess?

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Beneath your beautiful

In 8 hours, I’d probably be in bed already and saying goodbye to Sembreak ’13. Nothing really happened this Sembreak. I thought it was going to be dabomb.com with a lot of adventures considering it’s my last Sembreak before I go to college. The only thing I did this sembreak was go shopping and go to the mall. And some of my friends went out of town with their other friends. O H. Hahaha well yeah they invited me but I declined again. I always decline because idk they have other friends I’m not really close with lol. Another reason why is because I thought I was going to Subic last Monday but I then I got sick

And I was supposed to go to John Hay awhile ago to see if Commissary if they still sell  Bath and Body Works pocketbacs but it rained. Hooray.

I just don’t want to go to school tomorrow because I don’t want to see my grades, I swear. Wish me luck and prayer circle for my heart 😦

WOW I FAIL AT LIFE BIGTIME. Hahaha. 😦

I still remain positive though. I just hope something good happens before the year ends. I really need it. 2013 has been really shitty and I just afhgsfjdfg I’m sad okay 😦 I HOPE NIALL COMES HERE AND IDK JUST SURPRISE ME WHILE IM IN SCHOOL OR SOMETHING. IDK. Hahaha.  Ugh anyway, enjoy the rest of your Sunday! xx

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The one where I talk about death

This is a long overdue post. This was supposed to be posted last Thursday in line with Halloween but I didn’t finish it because I was catching up on Awkward. Anyway, since it’s All Soul’s day today, I guess it’s still connected?

I went to the cemetery last Thursday with my family to visit our family who are now up there. I really don’t like going to the cemetery, it’s like a sad and a creepy place because one day I’ll just end up there.

The thing is, I have learned one lesson or two from my family that day.

First, to tell kids straight up what death is. My cousin has two kids, they’re the youngest in the family. My niece is 5 years old and my nephew is 2. The thing is, they don’t know what death is. Well they do know but in a sense that dead people are up in heaven right now or they’re just sleeping. But to me, it shouldn’t really be that way. Children should know what death really is so they won’t be afraid of death or they won’t question it when they grow up. And to handle it well.

I have experienced that when I was younger. When my mom’s cousin’s dad passed away (basically he’s my grandfather but I call him tito. Same goes with my other grandfathers and grandmothers /I call them tita)  I was the same age as my niece that time. I remember going to the family house and the chairs and paintings were all down and people started going in and out being busy and all. I don’t remember vividly what happened that day but I can recall that it was the day before my dad’s flight. It was August and I was still in Kindergarten. Then my mom started talking to my grandma And the next thing I remember from that was I was getting picked up by my mom after school for that week and heading to the grocery to buy coffee, styro cups and all that then eating lunch and finally heading to the family house. The first time I saw the coffin I got pretty shocked. It was my first time seeing it. Then that’s when they finally told me that Tito passed away but they told me he was in heaven and all. They didn’t tell me the reason why he died. I only found that out when I was 7? The next thing I remember about that was when my great grandmother went out and saw his saw. Then she just cried by the coffin. I was confused and didn’t know what to do that time. I was eating meriyenda  and playing Yugi-Oh cards when that happened. I had a feeling she was told about it somewhat late.

Long story, short. Adults should always explain to their children what death is so they won’t be pretty shaken up about it. And there’s no harm in exposing the children to the subject of dead people and death itself. And it’s the way you explain it to them. My parents didn’t really sit me down and talked about death when I was younger, I just found out about it later on in life. (Like pre-teen years, yes). And I was the one who explained it to myself (get it? Um well I pretty much googled it and read books) So when I have kids someday, I will totally tell them about death. Not the “heaven-hell” type. But the real world type. Why people die, what happens if they die, etc. I’m also going to tell them they shouldn’t be afraid of death. It will happen to everyone and you just can’t be alive forever.

Second, it takes time to get over a loved one who passed away. There’s no minimum or maximum time to grieve. You can’t easily move on from it. It’s not like in love where you just grab a boy and make out with him then you can say you’ve finally moved on. It’s not like that when it comes to someone who died. You just can’t grab someone and tell them to be your grandmother or your uncle.

I can say that some of my family members are pretty much still moving on from what happened last September. Well, it has just been 2 months ever since. I can see that my mom is pretty much strong about it. She just talks about my grandfather sometimes. I’m pretty sure that’s her way to move on. Same goes with my aunts. By talking about him. To be honest, I don’t know their relationship with my grandfather when they were younger or when my grandfather was still alive.

Uh anyway, I only did this post because adults and you kids out there who are reading this should learn from this post too. Like tell your /future/ children about your departed ones. Tell them the reason why they died. Whether they died because of an illness or because of an accident tell them. Straight up. No bullshit. And if they have questions, answer them. Don’t sugarcoat anything. Tell them what was it like or your memories with them when they were still alive. It’s okay to reminisce about the ones who have passed. It’s also okay to miss the ones who passed away. But you need to know that life has to go on for you too.

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I’m in love with being queen

Okay so it’s November and it’s really weird to think that in 2 months we’ll be watching fireworks again and saying goodbye to another year.

But before all that, here’s a playlist for November. I placed mostly upbeat and indie songs because I’m not in the mood to put happy, sappy love or sad heartbreaking songs. I am literally [real_liam_payne voice] #done with love. Hahaha.

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Holy Grail by Jay-Z

Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don’t) by All Time Low

The Love Club by Lorde

Hold On, We’re Going Home by Drake

Crave You by Flight Facilities

R U Crazy by Conor Maynard

Diplomat’s Son by Vampire Weekend

Closing by Huey Mack Ft. Alec Kornfield (If you’re a fan of the song Closing Time, this for you)

Knee Socks by Artic Monkeys

Pass Me By by R5

Flaws by Bastille

#GETITRIGHT by Miley Cyrus

NYC Girl by The Orion Experience

Boston by Augustana

Sex by The 1975

Every Morning by Sugar Ray

Wake Me Up by Avicii

Teenage Icon by The Vaccines

Story Of My Life by One Direction

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