Before it ends: Part 1


Obviously, today’s the last day of May. And obvs, tomorrow’s the first day of June and it’s the month where we all go back to school *ugly sobbing*.

For the first part of Before It Ends, I’ll be doing a summary of what I did for the last day of May followed by the things I didn’t do this summer and what I’ll be doing for the remaining days of summer. Check out the 2nd part, tomorrow! 🙂


{What I Did Today}

 I had trouble sleeping because it was too cold in my room. I had like 3 dreams this day. First, a scary as hell one based on a horror movie. Then I woke up and noticed that it was only 4am. (Thank God, it was 4AM, not 3. I would freak and not sleep anymore if it was 3.) Then I opened the TV and watched for awhile. Then went back to sleep. I had another dream, but this time it involved aliens. It was cool yet freaky. I woke up, it was 6:30 and I decided to see the sun. Slept again and had this dream about computers hanging when I was defragging it and there was a message that kept on popping but I didn’t read it. And I was like God damn. I need to stop spending time with my laptop. Then, I woke up and it was already 8:15.

 I ate some breakfast, took a bath and got ready.

☀ Went to McDo at around 10?

 It’s my friend’s birthday today so we went to her house to hang and stuff.


 I found out this story about a guy I hate. I really don’t know what to do about it. It’s like I pity him and at the same time I still hate him because he’s annoying. But I did learn a thing or two about this. That there’s a story about every person. There’s a reason why they’re the way they are. So next time, I better think about that before I judge someone. But you see, I don’t really judge/hate on people… it’s just that they make me and it’s so annoying. I’m trying to be a good person here. Aaoshjrag.

Trisha was supposed to bring the HIMYM thing but forgot.  She’s a Barney-Robin shipper. HA HA I thought we were friends 

 I went to SM by myself and lied to my mom that I had my friends with me in the taxi. Yes, I am 14 (soon to be 15) and still, my mom nor my other relatives doesn’t want me to ride a taxi alone.

 I bought pretzels

 I ate nuggets for dinner. I didn’t want to eat anymore because I sorta ate a lot at my friend’s house but when life gives you nuggets, run away and eat them.

 I saw this kid wearing a shirt from this camp. And oOooOHh I don’t freaking care. I’m gonna make my own shirt, “YCSWU” (You can’t sit with us). Para cool. #meangirlsangpeg


{What I Didn’t Do This Summer}

☹ Go to Manila and Subic. Wow, I actually thought I was going on a trip. I was really sad and disappointed when I found I wasn’t. Maybe next year or sometime this year.

 Shop at Cotton On and Uniqlo 😦

 Download Sims 3. I can’t find a link anywhere! My friend told me she has a disk but unfortunately, she isn’t here as of the moment.

 Forgive people. I don’t know I just airkhfa I can’t but I want to.

 Stop being judgmental and stop hating on people, specifically boys. HAHAHA. Yes, my one-sided mortal enemies no. 1: Boys (here, there, everywhere.) You should be thankful if you’re a boy and I’m friends with you or I like you. Haha.

☹ Delete all the most unused apps on my iPod.

 Have guitar lessons. Believe it or not, I didn’t have time this summer to have guitar lessons.

 Learn how to read piano notes again. I know piano chords but they’re different from notes.

☹ Go to the gym. Apparently, I really have no future in going to the gym. I did, once. But I didn’t even freaking sweat!!! Technically, I lost more weight in dieting more that exercising. And you tell me that I should include exercising to my routine? HA HA damnit. My body reacts differently with stuff okay.

☹ Be 58-60 kilos. I lost some weight but I didn’t reach my weight goal 😦 I’m still DIEting and I jog/walk every other day. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING WRONG.


{For the remaining days of summer}

 Probs clear things out with one of my friends. You know the one I had a “huge” fight with. Hah. But my other friends told me to just let it go and ignore. Que sera sera.

 Download apps I need for school (Periodic table, formulas for Physics app, etc)

 Enroll for tutorial and CETs review (That I might do this Monday, depends on my mom’s sched) I am legit nervous just thinking about entrance exams for college because I spent the whole summer not taking any review class because I forget things easily and I’m distracted with things so I decided not to.

 Just get ready for things that will happen during the last year of highschool (Thesis, having a Soul thing, Thesis, and most importantly planning my future)

 Organize my room. I need more storage ugh

☒ Finish some things in Wreck This Journal

☒ Watch more Back to school hauls on Youtube.

 Fix my Tumblr and blog. (Yep, I might do a little tweak on this one of these days)

 Search for some quotes and put it in my planner.

☒ Dream about going to New York. Haha.

☒ Blog more.

☒ Fangirl more because I don’t have time anymore to do that.

 Work out and no more eating rice and just one day of cheat day. At least lose 3 more kilos so I’ll be 70 kilos please please please

 Buy a phone case

☒ Carpe the hell out of that Diem

Ugh. So many things to do, so little time.

Visit my blog tomorrow for Part 2 of Before It Ends!!! 🙂


School supplies haul!!!

This is an overdue post. I went school supply shopping last week 🙂

*cue I Don’t Wanna Go To School by The Naked Brothers Band*

BUUUT shopping for school supplies has got to be one of the most exciting things I look forward to every year. I wanted to do a vlog for this, but I don’t have a good camera.  So I decided to post it here. (Just so you know, I am NOT in any way, bragging. I’m doing this post so you know what to buy and stuff.) And I’m sorry for the low quality pictures 😦
First, this A4 notebook with a flower design. Backstory: My mom left me for awhile last week because her friend called her to meet up. Since this notebook was the last one, I quickly grabbed it because I figured this would be a good notebook for Physics because last year, I consumed like 2 notebooks just for Physics. Plus, I chose this notebook for my Physics subject because first, it’s long. 2nd, it has a lot of space so I can solve it. 3rd, it’s as long as a bond paper so I can just staple handouts and problem sets.
2nd this Springleaf spiral notebook with a rainbow-ish design on it. I really like Springleaf notebooks. I used 2 of these last year, but the ones I used last year are of different designs  🙂 I might use this for Chem, English and Soc. Sci. But idk. It really depends, I’ll see first who my teachers this year.
These are super cute notebooks! I just got them because idk. They’re really really cute! I still don’t know what subjects should I use these for. But I think I want to use these for Math, Lit and use one for an extra notebook.
This “Too cool for school” notebook I only bought because it was really cute and like the floral A4 notebook, it was the only one left. Hashtag medyo lucky 😉
Notebook filers. I bought 2 already, just in case.
I spent 10 minutes trying to rotate this picture but I just couldn’t 😦 Pens + a set of highlighters + pencil lead and eraser + correction tape. I’ll buy more pens once school starts oh and I forgot to buy a pencil case but I’ll buy one once I go out.
“When your friend asks you paper, and 12 other kids ask you too” <- Me every year since 1st grade. I really don’t understand why the kids in school can afford expensive phones, go to different countries, buy Starbucks for lunch and yet they don’t own their own pad paper. It only costs like 20php-30php. That ain’t expensive. Lol.  So I also bought a new set of pad paper. But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t buy your own because I ain’t sharin mah paper.
A school planner. This is my 3rd and last planner for highschool. It’s a Total Girl planner. I  wanted to buy the Candy one but it wasn’t spiral :\ And I don’t like bending the spine haha. This is really helpful especially when you don’t have an extra notebook to place reminders, assignments, etc. I also like this planner because of the cute doodles that you could stare at when the discussion is boring.
School shoes. I buy new ones every year because my shoe size gets bigger every year. Tip: Splurge on good quality school shoes so you don’t end up buying a new one every month. Or if you don’t have enough money, buy a cheap one first. Save up, and buy a good pair. I recommend Rusty Lopez, Figalo and if you saved up a lot, Gibi. I bought 2 this year for the reason that it’s my last year of wearing black shoes, all my life and I like wearing shoes, alternately. Especially during the rainy season. Plus, I don’t want to buy another one in the middle of the school year.
Lastly, I bought my school bag. It’s a Heartstrings backpack. 🙂 I wanted to buy a Jansport bag this year so it would be different, but I didn’t because it costs equivalent to at least 4 other bags, so that means, I can’t buy another one sometime in the school year if I get tired of my bag now. Guurrl I am not payin 3K for a bag. So yep. This bag’s big too but this one’s smaller than the one I had last year (You know the pink floral one? Haha.)
The things I have yet to buy are: a new set of colored pencils, clearbooks (but probably I’ll buy these when school starts bc color coding), a pouch , a pencil case, sticker paper, folders or a case where I can put papers in (idk what it’s called? But no it’s not  a clearbook.), an A4 case where I can put my fillers(I’ll buy this when I get my locker).
And I have yet to buy new pants and shirts because on Wednesdays, now that I’m an incoming senior (yay!), I’m not gonna wear team t-shirts anymore. So yep I need to buy more clothes (let’s all hope something fits me now that I KIND OF lost some weight :D) Haha. I’m going back to hell school on the 10th, how ’bout you guysss? 🙂


Dumb ways to die

So many dumb ways to dieee.

This game made me cry because it was too intense. No joke. I almost threw my iPod across the room when I die. Haha. Plus the “theme song” of this game is catchy too!

You guys should download this 😉 And solemnly swear to not do dumb stuff around trains.

That is all. I want to do the 80’s movie thing already but I’m not yet done watching all the classic films 😦 I promise to do it before May ends! Plus I’ll post another playlist, and some more random things before I go back to school. Have a good day, everyone 🙂


The Breakfast Club

I watched some of John Hughes works the other day. I’ll make a separate post for all the movies I had watched because I’m not yet done watching all of the films John Hughes directed and all the 80’s movies 🙂 I will also include this in the separate post because this isn’t really a movie review/summary.

Anyway, I watched The Breakfast Club (2nd time lol)  Can I just say that I’m attracted to 14 year old Anthony Michael Hall?! Whaaa. Hahaha. Seriously, if I was born in the 60s or 70s I would probably have a huge crush on him and fangirl over him :\ But I was born in the wrong generation so… P.S I only have a crush on TEEN Anthony Michael Hall, NOT the adult Anthony Michael Hall. (He’s like the same age as my mom, he’s only a year younger, I think and I’m only attracted to him because of the braces)

I could actually relate to all of the characters in the movie, somehow. Because they’re teens like me. There’s a little bit of Bender, Andrew, Brian, Claire and Allison inside of us. Don’t even try denying it. And the only thing that we don’t have in common with them is that they have a boyfriend/girlfriend after that Saturday. And we don’t. *ugly sobbing*

“We’re all pretty bizzare. Some of us are just better hiding it. That’s all”

I’m like Bender because he said “Peasants” a.k.a my fave word oh and finally, I knew where the “Eat my shorts” quote came from. It was Bender who said it! Actually, I only like Bender because he tells people rude stuff but he’s actually telling the truth, I want to be like that too it’s just that I can’t afford to be mean to people. I could only act like that in the internet. I’ll be getting my ass kicked if I was THAT rude in real life.

I’m like Andrew not because I’m an athlete but because of what he did to get in detention. He hurt someone because his dad told him so. No, no, my dad doesn’t tell me to hurt people. Haha. Sometimes, it’s the people around me who make me do hurtful things to others. Other times, it’s just the demon inside of me telling me to hurt someone so they would know I’m not always nice. Either way, after I hurt someone, I always regret it. I can’t sleep at night thinking of what I did and what the person felt after that. Then, I try to be all good again but do it again. It’s an annoying cycle I can’t really avoid, you know.

I’m like Allison because people ignore me… and I’m hella weird. I bring up my problems and don’t tell the whole story and tell people to forget about it but I end up telling about it because eVERYONE BEGS ME AND THEY DON’T LEAVE ME ALONE IF I DON’T TELL THEM. I’m also like Allison because if I sit at the back or even in front, people won’t notice me and they have the gUTS TO STARE AT ME LIKE I KILLED SOMEONE. I’m also this quiet kid like her and when she talks, people get annoyed heh. Oh and let’s add something to the things I have in common with Allison, I’m an anti-social loser too so yeah…

I’m like Claire because I cry whenever people throw harsh words at me and I could only say “Shut up”. And sometimes, I don’t answer questions with “yes” or “no”… I usually play with people’s minds and explain things to them not really related to the question. Lol. Do you guys get me?

(Notice how I made Brian last and it’s not a picture, it’s a gif? Hahaha 😉 Hint: I really find him cute. I have a thing with boys with braces when they were younger okay) And finally, I’m like Brian because I may or may have not contemplated suicide in the past years. Especially when I got failing grades. Hah. And I’m a dork but I’m feeling cool.

I want to meet people this school year that I can be friends with. You know, something different. I want to have a geek friend, a spoiled friend, a loner friend, a jock friend, a badass friend. I want them to not be friends with my other friends… just because. And we could call ourselves “New Clique On The Block” or “Cool Kids On The Block” or “The Haustus Club”. That would be so cool. And so much cooler than the existing clique names in school. And we’d only be friends online or in secret because in reality we have different cliques. Yes yes yes. And we’ll make our own shirts like “Hipsta Please” or “Too hipsta for you” or “UNAGI” or “You Can’t Sit With Us”. The thing is who should I be friends with? Lol I think no one’s like that in school :\ And no one wants to join a clique with me in it. S i g h.

Anyway, I leave you with this.


Feels…Tobin feels


“Because maybe it’s dumb to look for signs from the universe. Maybe the universe has better things to do; dear God, I hope it does. Do you know how many signs I’ve gotten, that I should or shouldn’t be with someone? And where has it gotten me? Maybe there aren’t any signs. Maybe a locket is just a locket… a chair is just a chair… Maybe we don’t have to give meaning to every little thing. Maybe we don’t need the universe to tell us what we really want. Maybe we already know that, deep down.” – Ted to Robin, S08E023

I should’ve posted this one days ago but I’m like “naahhh”. Kidding I was like “waaahhh” because FEELS. TOBIN FEELS. I always shipped Ted and Robin. But let’s talk about the “Something Old” episode.

First, if Barney really loved Robin he would’ve went to Central Park even if Robin said it was stupid MY HEART DROPPED WHEN TED DIDN’T GO TO THE MEETING AND WENT TO HELP ROBIN. Then they started talking about signs. And I totally disagree with Ted, but he has a point. It is really dumb to look for signs from the universe. But I’ve been doing that ever since I was born.

Anyway, did you see how Robin held Ted’s hand. Wait, their hands just touched but they didn’t hold hands? Idk it’s complicated lol.

Let’s go to the last episode of Season 8. Something New. I WATCHED THIS EPISODE LIKE 20 TIMES. A NEW RECORD. The only episode aside from this that I watched over and over is the “No Pressure” ep and only for 13 times (yes, I counted). Apparently, Robin’s “Something Old” a.k.a her locket, has been with Ted all these years. And Ted’s planning to give it to her as a wedding gift. Wtf wtf wtf TOBIN SHIPPERS LET’S HOPE ROBIN SAYS THE WRONG NAME IN THE ALTAR AND LEAVE BARNEY BUT IT’S NOT GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE SHE’S IN LOVE WITH BARNEY AND SHIT THIS IS A SIN FOR HOPING THIS TO HAPPEN SO LET’S JUST DROP IT OKAY. I’m still secretly hoping Robin’s the mother…. but I need to stop because she isn’t. Future Ted has been addressing Robin as “Aunt Robin” to his kids. Who calls their mom, “Aunt”? 😦 So yeah, I’ll drop that too. And I think Robin doesn’t have a thing for Ted anymore so…

Oh and Ted is moving to Chicago. Because he already searched high and low in New York for  “the girl” but didn’t find her. Well he did, but she’s marrying his best friend *ugly sobbing*. The scene I liked best in the last episode is when Ted told Lily if he gets any chance to make Robin happy he doesn’t even think about it anymore, he would just do it. He would do anything to make Robin happy and  would even open a vein in his arm just to bleed the locket out. Ted really does love Robin but maybe in a “friend” way.  Or maybe he doesn’t love Robin anymore, he just cares for her. BUT I’M PRETTY SURE TED STILL LOVES ROBIN BUT ISN’T IN LOVE WITH HER. You get what I’m saying here? Haha.

“Love sometimes means taking a step back. I think if you care about somebody you should want them to be happy even if you wind up being left out.”

I also just found out the next season will be the last one :\ It’s kinda sad though. I watched HIMYM for the past 2-3 years and then poof. No more. But every good thing has to end 🙂 HIMYM taught me good things like learning how to wait for love, maybe even learn how to love somehow, and being a good friend. Aww. Haha. I really can’t wait for September!!! Aaahhh that is all.

Oh and here, watch this to give you Mobatsky feels.